Sweetheart Deal
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When the dangers of the streets close in on a group of sex workers battling addiction, they find refuge in the roadside motorhome of a self-styled savior with a mysterious past. But just as they begin to rebuild their lives, a shocking betrayal comes to light that will change them all. Rather than fall victim to another cruel injustice, they discover the strength to stand up for themselves and for each other.
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Addiction & Recovery; Mental Health; Trauma & Abuse; Social Psychology of Predators,Urban Planning & Economic Inequity; Criminal Justice; Health & WellnessKeywords
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(birds chirping)
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- You're a pretty one, aren't you, huh?
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(birds chirping)
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Got me a wild bird!
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(indistinct chattering)
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Don't be struggling, you're okay.
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If you hold 'em right they
don't usually struggle too much.
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And the other ones aren't even afraid,
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even though they saw me catch one.
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(birds chirping)
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(somber music)
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- [Kristine] Even if
you're in the wrong life,
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what's familiar is comfortable.
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(somber music)
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A lot of people end up on
Aurora because they're lost.
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(somber music)
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(sighs)
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Something happens somewhere
along the way in life
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and they take a wrong turn
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and they can't find their way back.
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- [Recorded Voice] This call is from-
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- [Man] Laughn Doescher.
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- [Recorded Voice] An inmate
at Monroe Correctional Complex.
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- [Elliott] During my time of
trying to help these girls,
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many people had warned me, said,
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"My God, you're asking for trouble,
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these girls are gonna turn
on you at some point."
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(gentle music)
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This was a deal that worked for
both of us most of the time.
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It didn't always work in my benefit
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and it didn't always
work in their benefit.
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(gentle music)
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(car engine revving)
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(knock on the window)
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Come on in.
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Hi, sweetheart.
- Hi, how are you?
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- You look nice.
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- Thank you.
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It's fricking cold out there.
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- Oh well, in particular
it's wet out there.
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- [Sara] Yeah.
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- [Elliott] (chuckles) Ahh.
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- [Sara] How's life for you?
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- [Elliott] Been having
a run in with the cops
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and I finally -
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- Did they come back again?
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- Yeah, I said, "Look, I ain't leaving."
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I said, "I was born two
miles from here, raised here.
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I've been here on Aurora
for 10 plus years.
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I ain't going nowhere."
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I said, "Don't be threatening me.
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Well you got prostitutes
coming and going."
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I said, "Yeah."
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I said, "Look it, I can't help
'em if I can't talk to 'em."
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- [Sara] Yeah, exactly.
And they're gonna come in,
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they're gonna get warm.
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I'll roll them a cigarette.
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I'll dry their clothes out.
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I'll give 'em a cup of hot chocolate;
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I'll feed 'em if they need it.
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And they'll go back out-
- Let 'em sleep,
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if they need it.
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- [Elliott] And they'll go
back out and walk, walk away.
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- Yeah.
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(Sara's phone rings)
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- [Elliott] Oh gee, who can that be?
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- Hey, I'm coming out, I saw you pull up.
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- [Elliott] Okay.
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- Bye.
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Well, give me a hug papa.
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- [Elliott] Okay.
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- I love you.
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- Yeah, you too.
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- Okay, bye, sweetie.
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- Be good.
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- I will.
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Elliott's a good guy.
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I really value the fact
that I can knock on his door
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and crawl into bed and be safe.
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That's one in a million.
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You don't find that.
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All these people out here,
they're fucking sharks.
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Hi.
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You're not a cop or anything, are you?
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So what are you looking for?
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(gentle music)
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(somber music)
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- Last night I was walking back on Aurora
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towards the Knight's Inn,
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and this guy pulls right
over in this big white truck.
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He's like, "Oh, we'll
just go up to my place.
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It's just 10 minutes up the road."
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He took me downstairs and knocked me out
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from the back of my head.
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I just remember waking up
on the floor of his bedroom.
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And he starts walking
towards me and I'm like,
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"Whoa, whoa, what's going on?"
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He grabbed my head and made
me crawl to the bathroom.
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He's like, "You're worth
nothing, it doesn't matter.
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I just want you to be clean
before I dirty you up.
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You're gonna pretty much
just be my like sex slave
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until I am finished with you."
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He left for a second
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and I was looking for a door frantically,
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then I went the wrong way
and was in his kitchen.
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And was like, oh my god, you
are so, you're gonna caught,
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he's gonna find you."
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And I finally got out of the kitchen
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and I found the fucking
front door and I just ran.
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I was butt ass naked.
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And the first car that I saw,
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I pretty much had to stand in front of it,
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I wasn't gonna let it pass me.
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And I was like, "Dude, I was just raped."
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And he unlocked the car and I got in.
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(gentle music)
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I'm so glad I got away from him.
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It just replays over and
over and over in my mind.
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(somber music)
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(car engine revving)
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- The hunt begins; the chase is on.
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Let's go get 'em, mama.
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(Amy groaning)
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(gentle music)
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- See that might be
the street right there.
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- I think that that's it.
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'Cause it's a big truck.
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Gosh, I don't know.
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- Close, isn't it?
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- [Amy] Yeah, that could really be it.
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- And it is; I see a
basement window I think.
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I'm gonna slide up there,
and slide up that hill,
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and peek in that pick-up window,
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and see if it has dark or black
bucket seats with a console.
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And then sneak back here and
we'll take off real quick.
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- [Amy] Okay.
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- This won't take me a second.
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I won't be long.
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(bangs car door)
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(somber music)
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Let me get out of here.
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The cab is huge inside.
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- [Amy] Yeah.
- The console
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is extraordinarily big.
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- [Amy] Yes.
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- Bucket seats.
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- [Amy] Yes.
- Black.
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- [Amy] Yes.
Yeah.
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- [Amy] That's it!
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- Probably.
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(somber music)
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Most of his victims are
in the non-reporting mode.
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He's careful on who he picks.
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So he's probably got away
with this for a longer time.
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(somber music)
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I wanna write down the address
before I call the cops.
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They have a natural hesitation
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to re- resist civ- civilian interference.
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And a certain resentment
if you're good at it.
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Sherlock Holmes had the same trouble.
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It's true.
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Good morning, Dave.
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This is Laughn Doescher.
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And I was calling because I
think we have the right location
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and I have a photograph of the
guy and his identification,
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the license plate number of
the white four-door pickup.
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I'll go ahead and leave you
some of the information now.
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And you'll see this character.
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Hah!
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(engine revving)
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Christine, welcome.
(indistinct)
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- [Christine] Hi, Mr. Elliott
- Hi.
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I'm gonna help you in because
it's a dangerous step.
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- Thank you.
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- And if you could sit on
the couch right over here -
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- [Christine] Okay.
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- I'll sit over here, and I
can see why you have a stalker.
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- Oh!
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- Oh my goodness, now
you're gonna have two.
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- Nice to meet you.
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- Yeah, nice to meet you.
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- [Christine] There was a search warrant
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I looked at today that had a,
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sounded like a serial
rapist of prostitutes.
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- Yeah.
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- And is raping prostitutes
I think at knife point.
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- Well a bunch of 'em out here
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have been raped at knife point.
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- And I think they're
circling in on this guy.
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- Right, the whole
atmosphere has escalated.
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- Yep.
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- And so the whole thing has gotten worse.
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Well I've been a criminal investigator
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a good portion of my life.
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I used to know all the
big attorneys in town.
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Most of 'em are dead now.
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- How many women and girls
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would you estimate work this area?
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- [Elliott] A hundred?
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- A hundred or so?
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- I have pictures of almost all the gals.
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I'm pretty good at keeping track
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'cause I'm a pretty straight individual;
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but it's a lot to keep track of.
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- And how do you... I've seen
your name different ways,
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what's your most preferred
way for the print?
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- Elliott, probably.
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- [Christine] How old are you?
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- [Elliott] Yesterday I turned 63.
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- [Christine] Happy birthday.
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- Well, thank you.
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And...
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- [Christine] Does that make you a Pisces?
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No, we're now in Aries.
- Air head..
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with rising hormones.
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- [Christine] Oh (laughs).
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- I'm notorious on the Blade.
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- [Christine] Are you?
- Yes, I am.
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- [Christine] What does that mean exactly?
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- Well, I don't know exactly
but the girls knock on my door
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and say, "I've heard rumors
and I wanna see it for myself."
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- [Christine] Really? And
are you accommodating?
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- Oh, (laughs) well, you know
prostitutes need love too.
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They don't get it in their work.
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- [Christine] Right, so you have-
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loving relationships?
I have relationships
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with most of these girls!
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- Oh!
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- But I help them a lot.
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And if they're ever in trouble,
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they can come to me and
they can count on me.
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And if they ever need me,
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they can always spend the night too.
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- [Christine] Are you
in recovery yourself?
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- No, I never had drug addiction.
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- [Christine] Well, I admire what you do,
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reaching out to people.
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- [Elliott] It's what I do.
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- Well, I think I have
to get back to my office
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and start writing on another story.
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Well it's been a pleasure to meet you.
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I really appreciate you taking the time.
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(gentle music)
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(police siren wails)
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- Oh, man!
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- Oh boy!
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(police siren wails)
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- [Elliott] Sure enough.
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- Glad it's somebody else and not me.
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Not that I wish it on anyone, but...
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Just saying.
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Boy, that's pretty bad.
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I don't care what anybody says,
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reading glasses do make your eyes worse.
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- Well, they're gonna
get weaker year by year.
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If you wanna blame it on
the subsequent glasses,
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that's fine.
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But your person's gonna age.
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- [Kristine] Maybe you're gonna age.
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- [Elliott] Yeah, (laughs).
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(oil sizzling)
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- All right, (indistinct)
grab me a thingy.
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Then I'm good to go.
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- [Tammy] Got any money, mama?
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- Yeah, there we go.
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I love that sweatshirt.
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My mom is French and my Dad's German,
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so actually I wanna get a tattoo
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that incorporates both the
Fleur- de-lis and the Iron Cross.
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- [Tammy] Yeah I'm half French.
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- [Kristine] Yeah?
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- [Tammy] Half French and half Norwegian.
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- [Kristine] Cool!
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- [Tammy] Stubborn,
stubborn and more stubborn.
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(both laughing)
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- [Kristine] You got a blade or somethin'?
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Do you wanna cut a piece off for yourself?
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- [Tammy] I have a very sharp knife.
00:15:04.862 --> 00:15:07.656
- Okay, these glasses aren't all that, so.
00:15:09.909 --> 00:15:11.076
Here, let me uh...
00:15:18.042 --> 00:15:20.294
I remember, these very words
coming out of my mouth:
00:15:20.294 --> 00:15:24.423
"oh I'll never fall in
that trap again." (laughs)
00:15:24.423 --> 00:15:29.261
That was like, Satan: "Oh
yeah? oh yeah? (laughing)
00:15:29.261 --> 00:15:31.388
We'll see about that, Kristine.
00:15:31.388 --> 00:15:33.098
Yeah, hmm."
00:15:33.098 --> 00:15:34.850
- [Tammy] Yeah, never-ending cycle.
00:15:37.603 --> 00:15:39.980
I don't tell tricks at all what I do.
00:15:39.980 --> 00:15:41.065
- [Kristine] No, hell no.
00:15:41.065 --> 00:15:43.484
Ask me no questions,
I'll tell you no lies.
00:15:44.777 --> 00:15:49.573
I have enough regulars that
I usually have it covered.
00:15:49.573 --> 00:15:53.369
I just... everybody kinda
crapped out on me this week.
00:15:54.995 --> 00:15:56.872
This is about to be a huge relief.
00:15:56.872 --> 00:15:59.458
(indistinct chattering)
00:15:59.458 --> 00:16:00.292
- Yeah.
00:16:02.169 --> 00:16:03.545
- There we go, painless.
00:16:05.005 --> 00:16:07.424
(jazz music)
00:16:14.181 --> 00:16:15.891
- [Tammy] Well, I'll give you my number.
00:16:15.891 --> 00:16:18.060
- [Kristine] Okay, yeah definitely.
00:16:18.060 --> 00:16:20.646
(somber music)
00:16:20.646 --> 00:16:21.480
- [Tammy] And whether or not
00:16:21.480 --> 00:16:23.107
we actually like each other out here,
00:16:23.107 --> 00:16:27.403
I think there's some level
of respect or comradery.
00:16:27.403 --> 00:16:28.988
- [Tammy] How do you spell your name?
00:16:28.988 --> 00:16:31.448
- [Kristine] K-R-I-S-T-I-N-E.
00:16:31.448 --> 00:16:34.034
- [Tammy] So, yeah, we
exchange information,
00:16:34.910 --> 00:16:36.745
that's how we stay alive.
00:16:40.374 --> 00:16:42.710
- [Kristine] I can't go
out there and do this
00:16:42.710 --> 00:16:44.461
unless I'm fucking high on somethin'.
00:16:44.461 --> 00:16:48.090
I tell ya, I don't wanna do it anyway.
00:16:48.090 --> 00:16:51.468
Okay, no, no don't smear the lipstick!
00:16:51.468 --> 00:16:52.302
(Elliott speaking indistinctly)
00:16:52.302 --> 00:16:53.679
Okay, well here; give me
a chance (indistinct).
00:16:53.679 --> 00:16:54.513
- No!
00:16:54.513 --> 00:16:55.347
- Just don't smear!
00:16:55.347 --> 00:16:56.515
- I don't like that.
00:16:56.515 --> 00:16:57.349
- What?
00:16:57.349 --> 00:16:58.183
- You can give me a hug.
00:16:58.183 --> 00:16:59.018
- Well, uh.
00:16:59.018 --> 00:17:00.144
- Yeah, there you go.
00:17:00.144 --> 00:17:02.062
- Well give me a kiss damn it.
00:17:02.062 --> 00:17:03.564
There, I just don't wanna get
00:17:03.564 --> 00:17:04.523
like pink all the way up my cheekbone.
00:17:04.523 --> 00:17:05.357
- I don't know what you felt.
00:17:05.357 --> 00:17:06.400
(group chattering)
00:17:06.400 --> 00:17:09.987
- (laughs) Okay sweetie,
well, I'll talk to you soon.
00:17:09.987 --> 00:17:11.238
- Okay don't fall down.
00:17:11.238 --> 00:17:12.239
- I won't.
00:17:12.239 --> 00:17:13.240
- Okay, be good.
00:17:13.240 --> 00:17:14.283
- [Kristine] Oh yeah.
00:17:15.284 --> 00:17:16.493
When I'm good, I'm really good,
00:17:16.493 --> 00:17:17.870
but when I'm bad, I'm better.
00:17:17.870 --> 00:17:19.955
Isn't that Mae West who said that?
00:17:19.955 --> 00:17:20.789
- Could be.
00:17:20.789 --> 00:17:21.999
- [Kristine] I'm pretty sure.
00:17:21.999 --> 00:17:23.375
- Come back and prove it to me.
00:17:23.375 --> 00:17:24.209
- [Kristine] Okay.
00:17:24.209 --> 00:17:25.419
- Okay, be good.
00:17:25.419 --> 00:17:27.171
- [Kristine] Oh yeah!
00:17:28.422 --> 00:17:31.008
(gentle music)
00:17:31.925 --> 00:17:35.095
- [Tammy] My parents kicked
me out when I was 12.
00:17:35.095 --> 00:17:39.892
And I met a drug dealer.
00:17:41.602 --> 00:17:45.564
So I developed a very serious drug habit.
00:17:48.025 --> 00:17:50.819
I think I do probably close to
two or three hundred dollars
00:17:50.819 --> 00:17:53.405
worth of heroin a day,
at this point in time.
00:17:56.450 --> 00:17:58.285
I really don't know if I'll ever stop,
00:17:58.285 --> 00:18:00.454
I don't see it happening.
00:18:00.454 --> 00:18:03.040
(gentle music)
00:18:09.838 --> 00:18:12.007
Any one of us could do
something different,
00:18:12.883 --> 00:18:14.051
but it's a cycle.
00:18:14.051 --> 00:18:16.637
(gentle music)
00:18:20.557 --> 00:18:22.226
You don't know how to get out.
00:18:22.226 --> 00:18:24.269
You have felonies, people
don't wanna hire you.
00:18:24.269 --> 00:18:25.771
You have prostitution on your record.
00:18:25.771 --> 00:18:27.106
People don't wanna hire you.
00:18:27.106 --> 00:18:30.109
(gentle music)
00:18:30.109 --> 00:18:32.361
And then you add addiction.
00:18:36.031 --> 00:18:38.450
I personally haven't met a working girl
00:18:38.450 --> 00:18:41.245
who has gotten out of the
life and not come back to it.
00:18:41.245 --> 00:18:43.288
(gentle music)
00:18:43.288 --> 00:18:46.583
Not one, not yet.
00:18:46.583 --> 00:18:49.169
(gentle music)
00:18:52.923 --> 00:18:55.759
(Sara bangs door)
00:19:20.826 --> 00:19:23.328
(Sara laughs)
00:19:30.627 --> 00:19:33.297
(phone ringing)
00:19:34.256 --> 00:19:35.090
- [Male Voice] Hello?
00:19:35.090 --> 00:19:36.466
- Hey you, what's up?
00:19:37.551 --> 00:19:38.844
(indistinct)
00:19:38.844 --> 00:19:40.971
It's Sara, who's this?
00:19:40.971 --> 00:19:42.222
(indistinct)
00:19:42.222 --> 00:19:43.932
Hey you, what's up?
00:19:45.017 --> 00:19:46.560
- [Male Voice] Hey listen,
I'm making a deal right now.
00:19:46.560 --> 00:19:48.562
Can I call you right back, right back?
00:19:48.562 --> 00:19:49.813
- Yeah, right back.
00:19:49.813 --> 00:19:52.608
Okay, I got a room, call me back.
00:19:57.029 --> 00:19:57.863
Fucker.
00:19:59.573 --> 00:20:03.368
It's Sara, sexy Sara.
00:20:05.704 --> 00:20:06.538
What are you doing?
00:20:06.538 --> 00:20:07.706
Are you still at the room?
00:20:09.625 --> 00:20:10.792
I'm downstairs.
00:20:13.045 --> 00:20:15.797
Well, I had an explosion this evening
00:20:15.797 --> 00:20:17.674
and I'm about to go to work.
00:20:17.674 --> 00:20:20.052
Can you front me just like a dime?
00:20:23.597 --> 00:20:26.058
You can't, like not one hit?
00:20:27.476 --> 00:20:28.477
Nope?
00:20:28.477 --> 00:20:31.146
Okay, well, I'll call you
back when I got some money.
00:20:32.064 --> 00:20:32.898
All right.
00:20:37.694 --> 00:20:42.699
8448, 8448, yeah that's
not a working number.
00:20:46.536 --> 00:20:48.372
I was trying to call to get some dope
00:20:48.372 --> 00:20:50.540
and he's not answering his phone
00:20:50.540 --> 00:20:52.209
and he's saying he lost his phone
00:20:52.209 --> 00:20:54.586
and it's the wrong number.
00:20:54.586 --> 00:20:56.296
(phone ringing)
00:20:56.296 --> 00:20:59.841
(faintly speaking)
00:20:59.841 --> 00:21:02.427
(gentle music)
00:21:07.683 --> 00:21:09.017
It's fucked up.
00:21:09.017 --> 00:21:11.603
(gentle music)
00:21:15.440 --> 00:21:17.985
(faintly speaking)
00:21:17.985 --> 00:21:20.529
He won't answer his fucking phone now.
00:21:24.283 --> 00:21:27.160
(Kristine snoring)
00:21:31.999 --> 00:21:34.751
(engine revving)
00:21:37.587 --> 00:21:40.173
(gentle music)
00:21:45.095 --> 00:21:46.513
- [Kristine] I hate being a prostitute,
00:21:46.513 --> 00:21:48.223
I just fucking hate it.
00:21:48.223 --> 00:21:51.143
(gentle music)
00:21:51.143 --> 00:21:53.270
I'm a welder who happened
to be out of fucking work
00:21:53.270 --> 00:21:55.314
for a minute and had bills to pay.
00:21:55.314 --> 00:21:57.899
(gentle music)
00:22:01.069 --> 00:22:02.654
I ended up doing two and a half years
00:22:02.654 --> 00:22:05.240
in solitary confinement as a juvenile.
00:22:06.950 --> 00:22:09.453
Basically I was building bombs.
00:22:09.453 --> 00:22:10.454
Just for fun!
00:22:10.454 --> 00:22:12.039
I'm really good at chemistry.
00:22:12.039 --> 00:22:14.624
(gentle music)
00:22:16.043 --> 00:22:20.505
I got out, when I was like
17, all of a sudden boom,
00:22:20.505 --> 00:22:21.548
I'm on the street.
00:22:21.548 --> 00:22:24.760
(gentle music)
00:22:24.760 --> 00:22:26.136
Things went pretty sideways
00:22:26.136 --> 00:22:28.847
and I ended up having to hook
00:22:28.847 --> 00:22:30.974
to support paying for my habit.
00:22:30.974 --> 00:22:33.560
(gentle music)
00:22:37.522 --> 00:22:42.152
Heroin makes what should
be intolerable tolerable.
00:22:44.738 --> 00:22:48.075
And it's not so much even
what the drug feels like,
00:22:48.075 --> 00:22:51.119
after awhile, a very short
while it becomes about
00:22:51.119 --> 00:22:52.996
what it feels like to not have it.
00:22:52.996 --> 00:22:56.041
(gentle music)
00:22:56.041 --> 00:22:58.835
Being dopesick is the
worst feeling in the world.
00:23:00.337 --> 00:23:02.506
To go from dopesick to well,
00:23:03.715 --> 00:23:06.385
it's like being taken up in
the rapture or something.
00:23:06.385 --> 00:23:08.387
I don't know how to explain it.
00:23:15.769 --> 00:23:18.522
(birds chirping)
00:23:21.400 --> 00:23:24.736
(indistinct chattering)
00:23:30.367 --> 00:23:33.453
(car engine revving)
00:23:34.913 --> 00:23:36.164
- [Elliott] Where are you?
00:23:36.164 --> 00:23:37.249
- [Mom] Oh, Come in!
00:23:37.249 --> 00:23:38.083
(dog barks)
00:23:38.083 --> 00:23:39.000
- Happy Thanksgiving to you.
00:23:40.043 --> 00:23:41.503
- I waited for you (faintly speaking).
00:23:41.503 --> 00:23:42.379
- Good.
00:23:42.379 --> 00:23:44.506
Calm down, calm down.
00:23:44.506 --> 00:23:45.674
- [Mom] Laughn was my middle son
00:23:45.674 --> 00:23:49.094
and he was just interesting.
00:23:49.094 --> 00:23:51.972
The most challenging kids are
always the most interesting.
00:23:53.056 --> 00:23:54.558
He was a good student.
00:23:54.558 --> 00:23:57.060
He ran cross country.
00:23:57.060 --> 00:23:59.813
He raced racing pigeons
when he got a little older.
00:24:01.565 --> 00:24:03.400
He was the most difficult of my kids
00:24:03.400 --> 00:24:06.111
like when he climbed the
bell tower at the church
00:24:06.111 --> 00:24:07.154
to get a pigeon.
00:24:10.574 --> 00:24:12.742
He did everything to extremes.
00:24:14.536 --> 00:24:16.413
But when it came to the war,
00:24:16.413 --> 00:24:18.707
because his dad was in the World War II
00:24:18.707 --> 00:24:22.002
and he came back damaged,
Laughn didn't wanna go to war.
00:24:22.878 --> 00:24:24.880
He said I cannot kill.
00:24:24.880 --> 00:24:26.381
I know he couldn't have killed.
00:24:26.381 --> 00:24:28.008
I saw what it did to his dad.
00:24:30.552 --> 00:24:33.305
(playing guitar)
00:24:54.576 --> 00:24:56.495
- (giggles) forgot where I'm going.
00:24:56.495 --> 00:24:58.163
- Look at the bird.
00:24:58.163 --> 00:25:00.457
Oh, there's a bird on the feeder.
00:25:00.457 --> 00:25:03.043
You put it so I could see him better.
00:25:03.043 --> 00:25:03.877
- [Elliott] I know it.
00:25:03.877 --> 00:25:04.961
- [Mom] I love that.
00:25:04.961 --> 00:25:09.966
(gentle music)
(birds chirping)
00:25:11.176 --> 00:25:12.886
- Oh, the mountains are beautiful.
00:25:14.554 --> 00:25:16.932
- [Mom] I think he likes a vacation
00:25:16.932 --> 00:25:18.934
but I think he's anxious to go home
00:25:18.934 --> 00:25:22.687
to his people he knows that need him.
00:25:22.687 --> 00:25:25.524
(gentle music)
00:25:25.524 --> 00:25:30.529
He's not called Mayor of
Aurora for nothing. (laughs)
00:25:30.737 --> 00:25:33.490
(birds chirping)
00:25:37.494 --> 00:25:38.662
- Hi Sweetie.
00:25:38.662 --> 00:25:39.913
- Hey baby, nice tits.
00:25:39.913 --> 00:25:42.040
- (giggles) Hey, I grew them myself.
00:25:44.209 --> 00:25:49.214
So, I'm gonna do a nitrous oxide hit.
00:25:51.424 --> 00:25:52.884
- Oh my god!
00:25:52.884 --> 00:25:54.594
- No, this is good for me.
00:25:54.594 --> 00:25:55.428
- Oh yeah.
00:25:55.428 --> 00:25:56.263
- It is.
00:25:56.263 --> 00:25:58.890
- It really, it's like it
fucking reboots my system.
00:25:58.890 --> 00:26:01.560
- I bet, one more drug.
00:26:01.560 --> 00:26:03.770
- It's nitrous, it's not a drug.
00:26:03.770 --> 00:26:04.604
(indistinct)
00:26:04.604 --> 00:26:06.481
It's an elemental gas.
00:26:06.481 --> 00:26:07.524
- [Elliott] Is it?
- Okay, no.
00:26:07.524 --> 00:26:10.902
Well, it's a fucking
fundamental part of our society.
00:26:10.902 --> 00:26:11.736
- [Elliott] And maybe-
00:26:11.736 --> 00:26:13.196
- You can use it in the dentist's office.
00:26:13.196 --> 00:26:14.864
You can use it in your car.
00:26:14.864 --> 00:26:15.699
- No, no.
00:26:15.699 --> 00:26:18.493
- Okay, so, (nitrous
deflates loudly) what,
00:26:18.493 --> 00:26:21.079
no it's just going in the
balloon honey, anyway.
00:26:21.079 --> 00:26:22.831
- [Elliott] It's not good with me.
00:26:22.831 --> 00:26:24.958
- They wouldn't sell
these if it wasn't good.
00:26:24.958 --> 00:26:26.543
(both laughing)
00:26:26.543 --> 00:26:27.502
- [Elliott] Like cigarettes, huh?
00:26:27.502 --> 00:26:30.380
- Yeah and alcohol.
(Elliott coughs)
00:26:30.380 --> 00:26:31.214
- [Elliott] Man.
00:26:34.676 --> 00:26:38.972
- I was never into opiates,
they never really jelled well.
00:26:38.972 --> 00:26:41.057
They didn't mix well with my system.
00:26:41.057 --> 00:26:44.477
But just by virtue of being sick
00:26:44.477 --> 00:26:45.770
and in and out of the hospital
00:26:45.770 --> 00:26:47.272
when having surgeries
for a bunch of times.
00:26:47.272 --> 00:26:50.734
Then I had pneumonia from
being laid up and they put,
00:26:50.734 --> 00:26:53.278
gave me narcotic cough syrup from that.
00:26:53.278 --> 00:26:55.405
And after four months straight of that
00:26:55.405 --> 00:26:56.573
then they cut me off and then-
00:26:56.573 --> 00:26:57.866
- [Elliott] But that
happens to a lot of people
00:26:57.866 --> 00:26:58.700
who don't become junkies.
00:26:58.700 --> 00:26:59.534
- I know.
00:26:59.534 --> 00:27:02.412
But that's what finally got the receptors
00:27:02.412 --> 00:27:05.790
in my brain a taste for fucking opiates.
00:27:05.790 --> 00:27:08.251
And really I was brought to my knees
00:27:08.251 --> 00:27:10.170
and I walked into the whole thing,
00:27:10.170 --> 00:27:13.465
getting in the habit again,
with my eyes wide fucking open.
00:27:13.465 --> 00:27:16.551
- You know when I hear this
I just have to come forward
00:27:16.551 --> 00:27:20.096
and say, why won't you give
any credence to the monster?
00:27:20.096 --> 00:27:21.765
- I couldn't just kick.
00:27:21.765 --> 00:27:23.516
I just can't be sick.
00:27:23.516 --> 00:27:27.604
I can't afford to take
even a few days off.
00:27:28.521 --> 00:27:29.981
- Come on, come on.
00:27:29.981 --> 00:27:31.399
Come on, come on.
00:27:35.820 --> 00:27:39.115
And that's not blaming you,
that's blaming the monster.
00:27:39.115 --> 00:27:41.451
That monster wants to
lead you down a wrong path
00:27:41.451 --> 00:27:43.995
and it'll raise its head every opportunity
00:27:44.954 --> 00:27:46.122
year in, year out.
00:27:48.041 --> 00:27:49.000
- [Amy] Daddy?
00:27:49.000 --> 00:27:50.168
- [Elliott] Yeah, mama.
00:27:50.168 --> 00:27:51.419
(Amy cries)
00:27:51.419 --> 00:27:52.587
I'm coming sweetheart.
00:27:53.463 --> 00:27:55.882
(Amy groans)
00:27:57.258 --> 00:27:58.093
It's Amy.
00:27:59.803 --> 00:28:01.680
(Amy cries)
00:28:01.680 --> 00:28:02.722
She's just hungry.
00:28:02.722 --> 00:28:05.183
(Amy cries)
00:28:05.183 --> 00:28:07.435
What do you need sweetie?
00:28:07.435 --> 00:28:08.520
(Amy groans)
00:28:08.520 --> 00:28:10.105
What are you doing?
00:28:11.272 --> 00:28:13.066
What are you doing?
00:28:13.066 --> 00:28:14.901
What are you doing?
00:28:14.901 --> 00:28:15.735
Want some water?
00:28:17.195 --> 00:28:19.614
(Amy groans)
00:28:24.202 --> 00:28:25.912
She's got an infection now.
00:28:25.912 --> 00:28:26.955
(Amy faintly speaking)
00:28:26.955 --> 00:28:27.956
Yeah.
00:28:27.956 --> 00:28:29.165
- [Kristine] Where?
00:28:29.165 --> 00:28:30.041
- [Elliott] I don't know.
00:28:30.041 --> 00:28:30.875
- [Kristine] Let me see.
00:28:30.875 --> 00:28:32.752
- [Elliott] Please feel it; it's hot.
00:28:32.752 --> 00:28:34.129
- Oh girlfriend.
00:28:35.296 --> 00:28:39.008
She has a big abscess, big
big knot on her shoulder.
00:28:40.552 --> 00:28:41.469
I think what's going on though
00:28:41.469 --> 00:28:44.305
is that she is flailing from
coming down off of crack
00:28:44.305 --> 00:28:47.058
and if she wasn't kicking opiates,
00:28:47.058 --> 00:28:49.686
she'd be in a coma, crack coma.
00:28:49.686 --> 00:28:54.691
But Jesus, because of opiates,
00:28:55.692 --> 00:28:59.404
she can't get the brain
waves to go to sleep.
00:28:59.404 --> 00:29:01.823
(Amy coughs)
00:29:24.262 --> 00:29:26.139
(Amy crying)
00:29:26.139 --> 00:29:28.725
(somber music)
00:29:37.984 --> 00:29:40.653
- [Elliott] A monster is kinda
like having another person
00:29:40.653 --> 00:29:41.863
inside your head.
00:29:41.863 --> 00:29:44.991
(gentle music)
00:29:44.991 --> 00:29:47.243
It's like you'll see in some cartoons
00:29:47.243 --> 00:29:48.453
or some of the old movies
00:29:48.453 --> 00:29:50.580
where you have a little
devil on one shoulder
00:29:50.580 --> 00:29:54.334
and an angel on the other
shoulder whispering things to you.
00:29:54.334 --> 00:29:56.920
(somber music)
00:29:58.630 --> 00:30:00.715
And the monster will do what it has to do.
00:30:00.715 --> 00:30:02.967
(somber music)
00:30:02.967 --> 00:30:04.969
Initially it puts you through agony.
00:30:07.305 --> 00:30:09.057
But way after that's over,
00:30:09.057 --> 00:30:11.100
(somber music)
00:30:11.100 --> 00:30:14.395
the monster tries to subtly lure you away.
00:30:14.395 --> 00:30:16.981
(somber music)
00:30:18.149 --> 00:30:21.236
(car engine revving)
00:30:26.324 --> 00:30:30.328
Can't take care of you
unless you let me help you.
00:30:30.328 --> 00:30:33.665
If you keep ignoring me
and keep wanting help,
00:30:33.665 --> 00:30:36.000
then what can I do?
00:30:36.000 --> 00:30:36.835
- No.
00:30:36.835 --> 00:30:37.919
- [Elliott] You know I care.
00:30:39.128 --> 00:30:41.256
But you have to care too.
00:30:41.256 --> 00:30:42.090
- I know.
00:30:42.090 --> 00:30:43.633
- [Elliott] You know
what I mean, jellybean?
00:30:43.633 --> 00:30:44.843
- Yeah.
00:30:44.843 --> 00:30:45.677
- Okay.
00:30:47.804 --> 00:30:49.264
That damn Monster, huh?
00:30:51.766 --> 00:30:54.853
(car engine revving)
00:31:13.538 --> 00:31:15.206
Wow, good girl.
00:31:16.291 --> 00:31:17.125
Huh!
00:31:19.544 --> 00:31:21.713
- When I'm a normal person, which is,
00:31:21.713 --> 00:31:24.257
I couldn't tell you
when, that's been years.
00:31:24.257 --> 00:31:25.675
But I liked to cook.
00:31:25.675 --> 00:31:27.510
- [Elliott] It won't be
that long in the future.
00:31:27.510 --> 00:31:30.096
- I liked to cook a lot
when I had my apartment.
00:31:30.096 --> 00:31:32.849
I used to call my mom
every day and be like,
00:31:32.849 --> 00:31:34.392
"Okay, what am I gonna
make for dinner today?"
00:31:34.392 --> 00:31:36.936
'Cause I grew up eating really well,
00:31:36.936 --> 00:31:41.357
like they fix a dinner
pretty much every night.
00:31:41.357 --> 00:31:46.237
And I don't know, I'm
not feeling very good.
00:31:46.237 --> 00:31:48.907
- [Elliott] Couldn't be
infection riddling your body.
00:31:50.199 --> 00:31:51.784
- I think I wanna go on methadone
00:31:51.784 --> 00:31:53.369
or on suboxone or something.
00:31:54.954 --> 00:31:56.915
I mean, you kinda have to
be married to the clinic.
00:31:56.915 --> 00:31:57.916
But...
00:31:57.916 --> 00:31:58.750
- [Elliott] On methadone, yeah.
00:31:58.750 --> 00:32:00.251
On Suboxone, you don't.
00:32:00.251 --> 00:32:01.085
- No.
00:32:10.219 --> 00:32:13.306
(car engine revving)
00:32:14.724 --> 00:32:15.642
- Baby.
00:32:15.642 --> 00:32:16.476
- [Amy] Yeah.
00:32:16.476 --> 00:32:18.102
- You can't be late.
00:32:18.102 --> 00:32:18.937
- I know.
00:32:19.896 --> 00:32:21.773
- [Elliott] Well see?
00:32:21.773 --> 00:32:22.857
- Uh-huh.
00:32:22.857 --> 00:32:25.944
(car engine revving)
00:32:48.675 --> 00:32:52.178
(gentle background music)
00:32:56.516 --> 00:32:59.102
(gentle music)
00:33:01.104 --> 00:33:02.605
- [Amy] Hey mom, it's me.
00:33:02.605 --> 00:33:04.232
Something bad happened to me,
00:33:04.232 --> 00:33:09.237
this guy got me and I had to like escape.
00:33:10.238 --> 00:33:14.909
I've been staying with my
friend Elliott at his place.
00:33:14.909 --> 00:33:19.038
I'm scared to death that this
guy is gonna find me again.
00:33:19.038 --> 00:33:22.041
I would like to come
home to your guys' house
00:33:22.041 --> 00:33:26.838
and just keep going to
methadone and keep not using
00:33:26.838 --> 00:33:29.048
and I just wanna be away from here.
00:33:30.633 --> 00:33:32.176
I love you.
00:33:32.176 --> 00:33:33.845
All right, bye.
00:33:33.845 --> 00:33:36.431
(gentle music)
00:33:41.644 --> 00:33:42.729
- Make sure you have my number.
00:33:42.729 --> 00:33:43.563
- I know.
00:33:43.563 --> 00:33:45.857
- If you don't call me, I'm
gonna start pestering your mom.
00:33:45.857 --> 00:33:47.525
- Okay.
00:33:47.525 --> 00:33:50.111
(gentle music)
00:33:54.741 --> 00:33:57.785
(birds chirping)
00:33:57.785 --> 00:33:58.911
Hi!
00:33:58.911 --> 00:34:00.830
(indistinct)
00:34:00.830 --> 00:34:05.710
I know, right. (laughs)
00:34:05.710 --> 00:34:08.212
(dog barking)
00:34:10.131 --> 00:34:13.634
(lively background music)
00:34:16.262 --> 00:34:18.431
- [Tammy] I'm pretty safe, I mean, I -
00:34:18.431 --> 00:34:20.933
- [Mother] No, you're not.
00:34:20.933 --> 00:34:21.893
- What do you mean I'm not?
00:34:21.893 --> 00:34:22.810
- It's not safe.
00:34:22.810 --> 00:34:24.896
(group chattering)
- It's not safe but I...
00:34:24.896 --> 00:34:27.690
- And you take part in
that, so you're not either.
00:34:27.690 --> 00:34:30.359
- When you go out there at night like that
00:34:30.359 --> 00:34:32.153
and do what you do,
00:34:32.153 --> 00:34:35.364
it scares the holy ever
living loving hell out of me
00:34:35.364 --> 00:34:39.327
because I watched you
grow up as a little child.
00:34:39.327 --> 00:34:42.497
I held you in my arms and I loved you.
00:34:43.873 --> 00:34:47.960
If you get killed because
of some bozo out there
00:34:47.960 --> 00:34:50.880
and I lose you and you're dead,
00:34:50.880 --> 00:34:53.216
that's gonna just about destroy us.
00:34:53.216 --> 00:34:54.175
Do you understand?
00:34:55.343 --> 00:34:58.262
You know the thing is,
Tammy, grew up in Montana.
00:34:58.262 --> 00:34:59.097
You know that.
00:34:59.097 --> 00:35:00.556
I'm an old Montana cowboy.
00:35:00.556 --> 00:35:05.561
And I still believe that there
are too many men out there
00:35:05.603 --> 00:35:08.272
that that's all they
can think about anymore.
00:35:08.272 --> 00:35:10.817
- Yes, but Dad, if it
wasn't for those men,
00:35:10.817 --> 00:35:11.901
I wouldn't make any money.
I know.
00:35:11.901 --> 00:35:13.778
- [Father] Pumpkin, I know that.
00:35:13.778 --> 00:35:15.696
- We're out of body soap.
00:35:15.696 --> 00:35:16.531
- I (indistinct)
00:35:16.531 --> 00:35:18.074
- What are we gonna use?
00:35:18.074 --> 00:35:19.617
Toilet paper, paper towels?
00:35:19.617 --> 00:35:21.828
There's things that this house needs.
00:35:21.828 --> 00:35:24.288
- And I love you to death for helping us.
00:35:24.288 --> 00:35:25.581
I really do.
-I know that.
00:35:28.459 --> 00:35:29.460
- Oh my God!
00:35:31.504 --> 00:35:36.467
(indistinct background chattering)
00:35:36.467 --> 00:35:38.636
- If I'm not out there,
00:35:38.636 --> 00:35:40.388
their electric bill doesn't get paid.
00:35:42.181 --> 00:35:44.892
Before I even come home
at night, they call me;
00:35:44.892 --> 00:35:47.228
"Hey, do you got cigarettes?"
00:35:47.228 --> 00:35:50.690
They know damn well that if I'm out there
00:35:50.690 --> 00:35:53.484
and they call me up to tell
me that they need cigarettes,
00:35:53.484 --> 00:35:56.279
they know that even if
I don't have the money,
00:35:56.279 --> 00:35:58.447
they know I will suck an extra dick
00:35:59.699 --> 00:36:02.451
just to make sure I have cigarettes, huh!
00:36:02.451 --> 00:36:05.288
For a mother who is used
to fucking wipe shit on me
00:36:05.288 --> 00:36:07.123
and lock me outside for
the neighborhood kids
00:36:07.123 --> 00:36:09.292
to beat me up growing up,
00:36:09.292 --> 00:36:11.711
these people that you see out there?
00:36:11.711 --> 00:36:14.046
No, they are not even the same people.
00:36:15.006 --> 00:36:19.969
But I forgive 'em and I love 'em, I do.
00:36:21.220 --> 00:36:24.432
(phone ringing)
00:36:24.432 --> 00:36:25.266
Who's this?
00:36:26.100 --> 00:36:28.519
(indistinct)
00:36:29.687 --> 00:36:31.689
The guy in the black Audi.
00:36:31.689 --> 00:36:33.357
(laughs), how are you doing?
00:36:35.568 --> 00:36:37.028
I don't know about that.
00:36:37.945 --> 00:36:40.239
I don't know, but it is tight.
00:36:40.239 --> 00:36:41.616
No, that is true.
00:36:44.327 --> 00:36:45.620
Well how about this,
00:36:45.620 --> 00:36:49.373
you call me when you are ready to see me
00:36:49.373 --> 00:36:52.335
and we will work something out.
00:36:52.335 --> 00:36:54.003
(indistinct)
00:36:54.003 --> 00:36:54.837
All right.
00:36:58.883 --> 00:37:01.469
(faintly speaking) such
a line of bullshit.
00:37:01.469 --> 00:37:03.262
I don't even how guys believe it.
00:37:11.812 --> 00:37:16.817
Oh, damn!
00:37:16.859 --> 00:37:17.693
Ouch!
00:37:21.989 --> 00:37:23.866
People wonder why people do heroin.
00:37:25.076 --> 00:37:30.081
Fuck, I don't know how people
(indistinct), I really don't.
00:37:32.792 --> 00:37:35.878
(car engine revving)
00:37:42.593 --> 00:37:43.427
- Yeah.
00:37:45.429 --> 00:37:48.808
I'm feeling pretty good, I'm very stoked.
00:37:48.808 --> 00:37:50.184
I'm starting a new job
00:37:50.184 --> 00:37:53.813
so I'm gonna be working seven
days a week, 12 hours a day.
00:37:53.813 --> 00:37:56.274
I'm just hugely relieved.
00:37:56.274 --> 00:37:57.191
Okay, thank you.
00:37:57.191 --> 00:37:58.359
- You're welcome, you have a great day.
00:37:58.359 --> 00:37:59.318
- You too, bye.
00:37:59.318 --> 00:38:01.028
- [Cashier] Bye bye.
00:38:01.028 --> 00:38:03.864
- I got a call from HR today
to go ahead and go down
00:38:03.864 --> 00:38:06.701
and do a pre-employment urine specimen.
00:38:10.121 --> 00:38:10.955
There it is.
00:38:10.955 --> 00:38:15.960
I smoked some weed recently
and I got my heroin habit.
00:38:16.294 --> 00:38:17.628
Now we just have to go down there
00:38:17.628 --> 00:38:21.424
and sit and wait for them
to throw me in a bathroom
00:38:21.424 --> 00:38:24.218
with the water turned off in there
00:38:24.218 --> 00:38:26.345
and pour it in the cup.
00:38:26.345 --> 00:38:28.681
(dog barks)
00:38:32.226 --> 00:38:34.312
I've already gotten this product up
00:38:34.312 --> 00:38:36.230
to temperature in the microwave.
00:38:36.230 --> 00:38:38.691
And to maintain the temperature,
00:38:38.691 --> 00:38:40.568
I've kind of stuffed it vaginally.
00:38:43.321 --> 00:38:46.657
But as far as the whole rest
of getting straightened out,
00:38:49.744 --> 00:38:51.329
just a matter of doing it.
00:38:51.329 --> 00:38:54.415
(car engine revving)
00:38:56.000 --> 00:38:58.210
Okay, can't wait to be welding again.
00:38:58.210 --> 00:39:00.129
Ha ha, yay!
00:39:00.129 --> 00:39:02.465
This is gonna be great,
this is gonna be fun.
00:39:02.465 --> 00:39:06.010
I can make it look, just like
blend it in to where it looks
00:39:06.010 --> 00:39:07.470
just like the machine did it.
00:39:08.679 --> 00:39:10.639
Yeah, it's bad-ass.
00:39:10.639 --> 00:39:12.183
I mean, that's the best you can hope for
00:39:12.183 --> 00:39:15.269
is to be able to make a living
doing something you like.
00:39:15.269 --> 00:39:17.688
And since I can't pitch
in the major leagues,
00:39:17.688 --> 00:39:19.231
(laughs) I guess I'll weld.
00:39:22.151 --> 00:39:25.321
I'm capable of better,
I deserve better, okay.
00:39:27.031 --> 00:39:29.909
And it's up to me to make it better.
00:39:29.909 --> 00:39:32.995
(car engine revving)
00:39:34.538 --> 00:39:36.874
(footsteps)
00:39:45.633 --> 00:39:46.467
- Hi.
00:39:46.467 --> 00:39:47.259
- [Elliott] Hi.
00:39:47.259 --> 00:39:48.094
- How are you?
00:39:49.220 --> 00:39:51.013
I'm home daddy.
00:39:51.013 --> 00:39:54.725
(knocks on the window)
00:39:54.725 --> 00:39:56.060
Hey!
00:39:56.060 --> 00:39:56.977
- [Elliott] Happy Birthday.
00:39:56.977 --> 00:39:58.521
- Oh my God, you actually got me a card.
00:39:58.521 --> 00:40:01.065
Not even my own parents got me a card.
00:40:01.065 --> 00:40:04.485
I love 'em, but fuck that
hurts my feelings though.
00:40:04.485 --> 00:40:05.403
Thank you.
00:40:05.403 --> 00:40:06.237
(Elliott laughs)
00:40:06.237 --> 00:40:07.905
Can you see, this is the only card I got.
00:40:07.905 --> 00:40:09.198
- [Elliott] You're powered up properly.
00:40:09.198 --> 00:40:10.241
- [Tammy] I am fucked.
00:40:10.241 --> 00:40:11.075
- [Elliott] Yep.
00:40:11.075 --> 00:40:11.909
- Yeah.
00:40:11.909 --> 00:40:12.910
I need some Klonopin, babies.
00:40:12.910 --> 00:40:13.744
Can I pay for it?
00:40:13.744 --> 00:40:14.620
Yes I do, please.
00:40:14.620 --> 00:40:15.454
- [Elliott] You can have
some when you come back.
00:40:15.454 --> 00:40:17.206
- [Tammy] No, I'll pay for some.
00:40:17.206 --> 00:40:18.040
- [Elliott] No.
- Come on,
00:40:18.040 --> 00:40:18.916
I've been waiting all day for this.
00:40:18.916 --> 00:40:19.834
- [Elliott] Well, good for you.
00:40:19.834 --> 00:40:20.751
- Come one now, what?
00:40:20.751 --> 00:40:22.503
- [Elliott] I've been here all day too.
00:40:22.503 --> 00:40:23.337
- [Tammy] Why?
00:40:23.337 --> 00:40:24.171
- [Elliott] Life's rough.
00:40:24.171 --> 00:40:25.005
- [Tammy] Why?
00:40:26.006 --> 00:40:27.258
- [Elliott] No why about it.
00:40:27.258 --> 00:40:28.092
(indistinct)
00:40:28.092 --> 00:40:29.468
I wanna go eat dinner.
00:40:29.468 --> 00:40:31.429
- Where do you wanna go?
00:40:31.429 --> 00:40:33.389
- I was gonna go out to
that Mexican restaurant
00:40:33.389 --> 00:40:34.849
and then bring you home-
00:40:34.849 --> 00:40:35.683
- Let's go.
00:40:35.683 --> 00:40:36.517
- Throw you in bed.
00:40:36.517 --> 00:40:37.351
- Well let's go.
00:40:37.351 --> 00:40:38.185
- Yeah.
00:40:38.185 --> 00:40:40.396
(indistinct)
00:40:48.237 --> 00:40:49.321
- Hi Daddy.
00:40:49.321 --> 00:40:50.156
- [Elliott] You're so pretty.
00:40:50.156 --> 00:40:51.115
- You know what I was gonna tell you?
00:40:51.115 --> 00:40:52.408
- [Elliott] You're so
pretty... you love me?
00:40:52.408 --> 00:40:53.242
- You know what, I do love you,
00:40:53.242 --> 00:40:54.910
and I was gonna tell you,
00:40:54.910 --> 00:40:57.913
even though, I know, okay, yes,
00:40:57.913 --> 00:40:59.874
I have bad habits and I'm gonna go out
00:40:59.874 --> 00:41:02.877
and turn a trick for 60 bucks,
5 minutes in the parking lot,
00:41:02.877 --> 00:41:04.503
but you need to slow down on your smoking
00:41:04.503 --> 00:41:06.630
'cause I care about you
and you're coughing a lot
00:41:06.630 --> 00:41:08.924
and it worries me.
00:41:08.924 --> 00:41:11.010
- You don't cough, you don't get off.
00:41:11.010 --> 00:41:12.052
- [Tammy] It worries me.
00:41:12.052 --> 00:41:14.180
- Yeah, it worries me too.
00:41:16.599 --> 00:41:21.562
- At least you know that
you're thinking about you.
00:41:21.562 --> 00:41:22.771
- Isn't that good hot sauce?
00:41:22.771 --> 00:41:24.607
- Yes, give me a kiss.
00:41:25.816 --> 00:41:26.817
- I want to.
00:41:28.027 --> 00:41:28.861
Good!
00:41:30.321 --> 00:41:32.156
- Give me a kiss kiss.
00:41:34.200 --> 00:41:35.159
Please take care of yourself.
00:41:35.159 --> 00:41:35.993
- Okay.
00:41:37.203 --> 00:41:39.705
You really look cute right now.
00:41:41.165 --> 00:41:42.166
- Thank you.
00:41:43.375 --> 00:41:44.793
- You can't even open your eyes,
00:41:44.793 --> 00:41:47.505
(laughs) maybe that's
why you look so cute.
00:41:48.964 --> 00:41:50.424
Damn!
00:41:50.424 --> 00:41:53.844
Man, oh your hair's pretty, you're pretty.
00:41:53.844 --> 00:41:54.762
- Thank you.
00:41:54.762 --> 00:41:55.596
- Beautiful.
00:41:56.847 --> 00:41:59.934
And your lips taste like Banana Daiquiri.
00:41:59.934 --> 00:42:01.393
Man!
00:42:01.393 --> 00:42:04.230
Man, I want more of that.
00:42:05.147 --> 00:42:06.857
- I love Mexican.
00:42:06.857 --> 00:42:07.983
- [Elliott] Do you love me?
00:42:07.983 --> 00:42:08.817
(indistinct)
00:42:08.817 --> 00:42:10.027
Are you gonna stay with me tonight,
00:42:10.027 --> 00:42:12.655
and put work off 'til tomorrow?
00:42:12.655 --> 00:42:13.781
This is your birthday.
00:42:15.199 --> 00:42:17.660
I'm gonna get you drunk now
so you don't run off tonight.
00:42:17.660 --> 00:42:20.412
I'm gonna give you a handful of Klonopin.
00:42:20.412 --> 00:42:22.122
And if you ever ask about buying drugs
00:42:22.122 --> 00:42:23.749
from me on video again, I'll
spank the fuck out of you.
00:42:23.749 --> 00:42:26.168
- I'm sorry; beat me, beat me.
00:42:26.168 --> 00:42:28.796
(car engine revving)
00:42:28.796 --> 00:42:30.214
- She's going to turn a trick
00:42:32.508 --> 00:42:34.301
in the middle of her birthday party.
00:42:36.470 --> 00:42:38.556
She's in no shape to be walking the blade.
00:42:40.057 --> 00:42:41.392
They get in the wrong cars,
00:42:43.227 --> 00:42:45.854
they either get busted
or they get in trouble.
00:42:48.983 --> 00:42:50.276
That's about it doc.
00:42:50.276 --> 00:42:52.861
(somber music)
00:43:23.475 --> 00:43:26.562
(car engine revving)
00:43:32.735 --> 00:43:34.445
Well my dear friend Sara called me
00:43:34.445 --> 00:43:36.447
and asked me to come pick her up.
00:43:37.948 --> 00:43:41.660
She walked in the door
with me and she says,
00:43:41.660 --> 00:43:42.745
"I'm here to kick."
00:43:44.288 --> 00:43:45.706
- I'm sick of being sick.
00:43:49.793 --> 00:43:50.628
Sick of it.
00:43:53.964 --> 00:43:56.300
Sick of the constant search
and the constant need
00:43:56.300 --> 00:43:58.385
for something that controls me that much.
00:43:58.385 --> 00:44:00.638
And I want my kids back, so.
00:44:02.348 --> 00:44:04.933
(somber music)
00:44:09.229 --> 00:44:11.982
I have 3 kids, 2 girls and a boy.
00:44:13.609 --> 00:44:16.153
I was married and went
through a nasty divorce,
00:44:17.613 --> 00:44:19.948
I didn't think it was
fair to drag 'em around
00:44:19.948 --> 00:44:23.035
going through what I went
through so they're with family.
00:44:23.869 --> 00:44:26.455
(somber music)
00:44:29.917 --> 00:44:32.086
- For someone who's never used drugs,
00:44:32.086 --> 00:44:35.589
I really understand the
psychology behind the drugs.
00:44:35.589 --> 00:44:38.050
The psychology behind the monster
00:44:38.050 --> 00:44:42.554
and the severity of the
various withdrawal symptoms
00:44:42.554 --> 00:44:44.056
that they have to experience.
00:44:44.973 --> 00:44:46.058
It's pretty horrendous.
00:44:46.058 --> 00:44:48.268
I wouldn't wanna ever
have to go through it.
00:44:49.561 --> 00:44:51.146
I'm proud of you, you know?
00:44:51.146 --> 00:44:52.940
- [Sara] I know.
00:44:52.940 --> 00:44:53.774
- Man.
00:44:53.774 --> 00:44:54.608
- [Sara] Hopefully it works.
00:44:54.608 --> 00:44:55.818
- Yeah.
00:44:55.818 --> 00:44:58.362
Man, you always said you'd call, uh?
00:45:00.239 --> 00:45:04.868
So pretty, my little Sara-bear.
00:45:19.717 --> 00:45:21.301
How are you feeling?
00:45:22.720 --> 00:45:25.764
(indistinct)
00:45:25.764 --> 00:45:27.975
- (laughs) Still dizzy?
00:45:27.975 --> 00:45:28.809
- Yeah.
00:45:28.809 --> 00:45:29.643
- Are ya?
00:45:32.146 --> 00:45:33.397
You're doing really good.
00:45:34.273 --> 00:45:35.607
- Ooh!
00:45:35.607 --> 00:45:37.025
- I'm really proud of you.
00:45:38.736 --> 00:45:40.821
You're doing perhaps the best I've seen.
00:45:42.322 --> 00:45:45.200
- Well the only way that I
would have been able to kick
00:45:45.200 --> 00:45:47.077
is by sleeping the whole time.
00:45:48.287 --> 00:45:50.873
- [Elliott] For the first
five or six days it helps.
00:45:50.873 --> 00:45:52.541
- Well, yeah.
00:45:52.541 --> 00:45:56.879
Because that's usually what
makes me not be able to sleep.
00:45:56.879 --> 00:45:58.714
Yeah, you get the heebie
jeebies, don't you?
00:45:58.714 --> 00:46:01.175
(group chattering)
00:46:01.175 --> 00:46:02.885
- Yeah, the legs, go ooh!
00:46:02.885 --> 00:46:05.053
- Well that's if you don't have meds.
00:46:05.053 --> 00:46:05.971
- That's what I mean.
00:46:05.971 --> 00:46:07.931
- Yeah, without meds it's horrible.
00:46:11.268 --> 00:46:13.812
You're just darn near over
the worst of the hump.
00:46:15.355 --> 00:46:16.231
A couple more days
00:46:16.231 --> 00:46:18.650
you can start tapering a
little on the Suboxone.
00:46:21.111 --> 00:46:23.113
Keep you on everything else for a while.
00:46:24.615 --> 00:46:29.203
(jazz music playing in the background)
00:46:36.293 --> 00:46:41.298
- [Man] Ladies and
gentlemen, (indistinct).
00:46:44.676 --> 00:46:46.762
Besides I don't like this man.
00:46:46.762 --> 00:46:49.181
(indistinct)
00:46:55.020 --> 00:46:58.273
- Yesterday she just slept,
today she just slept.
00:47:00.400 --> 00:47:02.069
It's when you can't sleep anymore,
00:47:03.153 --> 00:47:06.907
the monster finds a way
of causing you to escape.
00:47:06.907 --> 00:47:09.493
(somber music)
00:47:38.564 --> 00:47:41.233
Two weeks into kicking, Sara disappeared.
00:47:42.693 --> 00:47:45.737
(gentle music)
00:47:45.737 --> 00:47:48.323
It's frustrating but lots of
things in life are frustrating.
00:47:48.323 --> 00:47:50.701
It doesn't mean you shouldn't do them.
00:47:50.701 --> 00:47:51.952
(birds chirping)
00:47:51.952 --> 00:47:54.371
(jazz music)
00:48:05.591 --> 00:48:07.217
- [Krista] So yeah I like it.
00:48:07.217 --> 00:48:08.427
- I think it's darling.
00:48:08.427 --> 00:48:09.344
Very cute!
00:48:09.344 --> 00:48:10.178
- I think it's alright.
00:48:10.178 --> 00:48:11.930
I think I'll like it better when I do it.
00:48:11.930 --> 00:48:14.600
- Yeah, (group chattering) it's good.
00:48:16.518 --> 00:48:20.898
- I go by Krista now, not Amy anymore.
00:48:22.024 --> 00:48:24.359
Amy's kind of like my street name.
00:48:25.319 --> 00:48:28.322
I'm tryna be like the old Krista.
00:48:30.282 --> 00:48:35.245
This is the wall of fame,
shame, it's undecided, (laughs).
00:48:38.916 --> 00:48:40.918
My dad had these pictures done,
00:48:40.918 --> 00:48:42.586
or I think my mom and dad did this.
00:48:42.586 --> 00:48:44.838
This is when I was still pretty young.
00:48:44.838 --> 00:48:47.925
This picture was actually
for like a magazine.
00:48:48.800 --> 00:48:51.553
This is my senior picture
00:48:51.553 --> 00:48:54.723
from when I was like
graduating high school;
00:48:54.723 --> 00:48:58.185
it's when I had nice long
healthy hair, (laughs).
00:48:58.185 --> 00:48:59.853
I miss my hair a lot.
00:49:00.812 --> 00:49:04.608
But I had just started
using in, at this time,
00:49:04.608 --> 00:49:06.568
and it was still a secret.
00:49:06.568 --> 00:49:09.613
My parents didn't know,
my school didn't know.
00:49:09.613 --> 00:49:11.448
At this time I still had 4.0 grades.
00:49:12.991 --> 00:49:14.409
I was a full-fledged addict
00:49:14.409 --> 00:49:17.037
but I wasn't what I've become now
00:49:17.037 --> 00:49:19.581
where I'm living on the
streets and stuff like that.
00:49:19.581 --> 00:49:21.083
I still had my life together,
00:49:21.083 --> 00:49:26.046
I was still a functioning
adult and member of society.
00:49:28.131 --> 00:49:30.550
This is my sorority picture from,
00:49:30.550 --> 00:49:35.097
so it's my second year in college.
00:49:35.097 --> 00:49:36.932
That's pretty much like the last time
00:49:36.932 --> 00:49:40.894
that I was healthy and normal looking.
00:49:40.894 --> 00:49:43.814
I've only had like two stretches of time
00:49:43.814 --> 00:49:48.276
where I was clean and sober
which was like once for a year
00:49:48.276 --> 00:49:50.946
and once for like three months.
00:49:50.946 --> 00:49:52.239
I like living (indistinct).
00:49:53.240 --> 00:49:54.449
They eat really well.
00:49:54.449 --> 00:49:56.076
They always have food, (laughs).
00:49:57.244 --> 00:50:01.081
I sleep good, (laughs)
normal stuff like that.
00:50:01.081 --> 00:50:04.543
So it's a good place for me to be.
00:50:04.543 --> 00:50:07.129
(gentle music)
00:50:08.714 --> 00:50:11.967
Hopefully, this is the last time
00:50:11.967 --> 00:50:14.636
I have to start this process over.
00:50:14.636 --> 00:50:17.139
(gentle music)
00:50:17.139 --> 00:50:19.349
Goodbye Amy, hello Krista.
00:50:19.349 --> 00:50:21.935
(gentle music)
00:50:27.941 --> 00:50:31.028
(car engine revving)
00:50:52.090 --> 00:50:57.095
(indistinct recording
from food stamp place)
00:51:00.640 --> 00:51:02.642
- Yeah, it'll be in there on the 10th.
00:51:02.642 --> 00:51:04.061
That's fucked-up.
00:51:08.774 --> 00:51:10.442
This is my son.
00:51:10.442 --> 00:51:13.528
It's Phoenix, he's 14 now.
00:51:14.404 --> 00:51:16.031
And the girl in the pink up top,
00:51:16.031 --> 00:51:18.825
that's Maddie and she's 17 now.
00:51:19.910 --> 00:51:21.912
She used to talk to me all the time,
00:51:22.913 --> 00:51:25.207
she won't talk to me now.
00:51:25.207 --> 00:51:26.541
I'm gonna start crying now.
00:51:34.758 --> 00:51:37.219
(Sara crying)
00:52:04.329 --> 00:52:07.415
(car engine revving)
00:52:09.876 --> 00:52:14.631
(Elliott making cooing noises to pigeon)
00:52:23.515 --> 00:52:24.558
- Come on Freddy.
00:52:28.103 --> 00:52:29.855
What's all that tough talk, uh?
00:52:35.193 --> 00:52:37.279
Gonna warn everybody about me, uh?
00:52:38.280 --> 00:52:41.449
How I mistreated you, and
fed you, and fattened you up,
00:52:42.492 --> 00:52:44.161
and saved you from certain death?
00:52:47.205 --> 00:52:49.457
And wouldn't let you go
until you were ready.
00:52:50.333 --> 00:52:52.919
(gentle music)
00:52:55.380 --> 00:52:58.175
When I first got you, you were friendly.
00:52:58.175 --> 00:53:01.803
The healthier you get,
the unfriendlier you get.
00:53:02.637 --> 00:53:04.556
Why is that, huh?
00:53:04.556 --> 00:53:07.142
(gentle music)
00:53:11.730 --> 00:53:13.356
You're a pretty bird.
00:53:13.356 --> 00:53:15.942
(gentle music)
00:53:21.990 --> 00:53:24.284
- I love him and I hate
him at the same time.
00:53:27.537 --> 00:53:31.750
He's a slimy old man, but I
know what to expect from him.
00:53:37.464 --> 00:53:39.674
He doesn't lie about it or try to hide it.
00:53:41.927 --> 00:53:44.387
Gotta give him props for
that I guess, (giggles).
00:53:50.060 --> 00:53:53.188
And the whole like two weeks
I stayed with him recently,
00:53:53.188 --> 00:53:57.108
I made it without any sexual activity.
00:54:01.196 --> 00:54:04.115
I felt it coming and I
didn't wanna freak out at him
00:54:04.115 --> 00:54:05.700
and stuff, so I left.
00:54:08.078 --> 00:54:09.579
Somebody came and got me.
00:54:10.830 --> 00:54:12.082
Tammy.
00:54:12.082 --> 00:54:14.668
(gentle music)
00:54:18.755 --> 00:54:20.757
- [Tammy] Sara is Elliott's favorite.
00:54:26.012 --> 00:54:28.223
I had met Sara at Elliott's.
00:54:31.893 --> 00:54:34.854
And she said something flirtatious to me.
00:54:36.773 --> 00:54:38.817
I don't know, I kissed her.
00:54:40.568 --> 00:54:42.445
I don't think anybody's heterosexual.
00:54:42.445 --> 00:54:46.199
I just think that people
sometimes find people attractive.
00:54:47.200 --> 00:54:52.163
- She's a prostitute, she
is bisexual, she's like me.
00:54:52.998 --> 00:54:54.374
And she's a sweetheart.
00:54:57.085 --> 00:54:59.587
- [Tammy] I told her if
you ever need me, call me.
00:55:02.674 --> 00:55:04.718
Elliott almost disowned me after this,
00:55:06.845 --> 00:55:09.139
'cause I took Sara away from him.
00:55:09.139 --> 00:55:11.725
(somber music)
00:55:18.982 --> 00:55:23.320
It was about 1:30 in the
morning and Sara called me.
00:55:29.576 --> 00:55:31.536
(phone ringing)
00:55:31.536 --> 00:55:34.456
And she sounded very fucked up.
00:55:35.582 --> 00:55:38.543
And she said, "I need
you to come and get me.
00:55:38.543 --> 00:55:40.170
Please, I'm at Elliott's."
00:55:43.089 --> 00:55:48.094
And I'm thinking, well shit,
my license is suspended.
00:55:49.512 --> 00:55:51.848
And I've got a fucking warrant.
00:55:53.475 --> 00:55:55.685
And I know how Elliott
is, that's the thing.
00:55:57.645 --> 00:56:00.065
I never promise someone
I'll be there for them
00:56:00.065 --> 00:56:01.399
and not been there.
00:56:02.942 --> 00:56:05.487
I started the car and I called her.
00:56:05.487 --> 00:56:09.657
I said, "When I get there
if you are not outside,
00:56:09.657 --> 00:56:12.243
do not ever call me again."
00:56:12.243 --> 00:56:14.829
(somber music)
00:56:18.416 --> 00:56:20.752
I told her that I would call once
00:56:20.752 --> 00:56:23.338
and then hang up so she
would know I was there.
00:56:24.547 --> 00:56:29.552
Elliott was sleeping and
she was scared to death
00:56:29.886 --> 00:56:31.429
that Elliott was gonna wake up.
00:56:33.598 --> 00:56:36.434
I can hear her in the
trailer banging around.
00:56:36.434 --> 00:56:39.979
So I know she's trying to
get out of the trailer.
00:56:39.979 --> 00:56:41.314
And I go in.
00:56:41.314 --> 00:56:44.192
(somber music)
00:56:44.192 --> 00:56:45.026
He wakes up.
00:56:47.237 --> 00:56:50.824
He's like, "What the fuck is going on?"
00:56:54.452 --> 00:56:56.538
I'm like, "Elliott,
00:56:56.538 --> 00:56:59.833
Sara's gonna come stay the night with me."
00:56:59.833 --> 00:57:04.087
And he's like, "No, Sara's detoxing!"
00:57:05.922 --> 00:57:07.799
And Elliott says,
00:57:07.799 --> 00:57:10.844
"Tammy, you need to get the
fuck out of my trailer."
00:57:12.470 --> 00:57:14.097
And I said, "That's fine,
00:57:14.097 --> 00:57:17.100
I'm leaving but Sara's leaving with me."
00:57:17.100 --> 00:57:19.686
(somber music)
00:58:00.226 --> 00:58:01.978
- [Kristine] I know
that this piece of work
00:58:01.978 --> 00:58:03.813
is going to outlast me.
00:58:07.650 --> 00:58:10.528
I've welded a bunch of
stuff for aircraft carriers
00:58:10.528 --> 00:58:13.031
and submarines, and all that.
00:58:13.031 --> 00:58:15.909
That stuff is gonna be
around after I'm gone.
00:58:15.909 --> 00:58:17.911
And you just never know,
00:58:17.911 --> 00:58:21.664
one of these ships ends up
in some historic situation.
00:58:23.875 --> 00:58:27.128
Who knows where this piece that
I've welded is gonna end up?
00:58:28.546 --> 00:58:31.132
(somber music)
00:58:33.468 --> 00:58:36.304
(metal crackling)
00:58:45.021 --> 00:58:47.607
(cat mews)
00:58:47.607 --> 00:58:52.278
(indistinct background chattering)
00:58:52.278 --> 00:58:53.112
- That's your phone.
00:58:53.112 --> 00:58:54.781
- [Rae] That's my phone.
00:58:54.781 --> 00:58:56.866
(phone ringing)
00:58:56.866 --> 00:58:59.827
Hey! We were just talking
about what's up with you.
00:59:00.870 --> 00:59:02.705
Me and Sara, duh...
00:59:03.540 --> 00:59:05.250
- Yeah, who else would it be?
00:59:06.167 --> 00:59:09.170
Mentally, I'm doing a lot
better because I found Rae.
00:59:09.170 --> 00:59:12.840
- Is Sunday night, like from
6 to 10-ish okay with you?
00:59:12.840 --> 00:59:13.675
- [Sara] That should be fine.
00:59:13.675 --> 00:59:14.634
- Yeah, she says that's fine.
00:59:14.634 --> 00:59:16.928
- Me and Rae have known
each other a long time.
00:59:16.928 --> 00:59:19.305
And since we separated I've been wondering
00:59:19.305 --> 00:59:20.974
when I'm gonna run into her.
00:59:22.141 --> 00:59:23.184
- Bye bye.
00:59:23.184 --> 00:59:25.311
- And bam, I run into her.
00:59:26.646 --> 00:59:29.190
Her roommate was moving
out and I moved in.
00:59:31.442 --> 00:59:35.697
(indistinct background chattering)
00:59:37.532 --> 00:59:38.616
Kinda corney (laughs).
00:59:42.036 --> 00:59:43.538
The cuter I look at the ER
00:59:43.538 --> 00:59:46.833
the less like a drug addict they treat me.
00:59:46.833 --> 00:59:47.959
Sad but true.
00:59:48.918 --> 00:59:49.752
- [Rae] Yep.
00:59:50.920 --> 00:59:52.297
- We love each other,
00:59:52.297 --> 00:59:54.966
we're not in passionate love like that.
00:59:56.759 --> 00:59:58.511
We're like sisters.
00:59:58.511 --> 01:00:00.054
- Cute?
01:00:00.054 --> 01:00:00.888
Cute.
01:00:00.888 --> 01:00:01.764
- Okay, with my boots?
01:00:01.764 --> 01:00:04.684
- I would wear the black hoodie
instead of a brown hoodie.
01:00:07.437 --> 01:00:08.271
Okay.
01:00:08.271 --> 01:00:09.105
All right, I love you, mama.
01:00:09.105 --> 01:00:10.648
- I love you too.
01:00:10.648 --> 01:00:11.858
- Call me and let me what's going on-
01:00:11.858 --> 01:00:14.402
- Hand me that scarf, just in case cold.
01:00:14.402 --> 01:00:15.403
- There you go, (indistinct).
01:00:15.403 --> 01:00:18.156
- Okay, I love you.
- I love you too.
01:00:18.156 --> 01:00:20.742
(somber music)
01:00:31.169 --> 01:00:32.545
- [Sara] Hi dad.
01:00:32.545 --> 01:00:33.421
- [Dad] Hi, honey.
01:00:33.421 --> 01:00:35.632
- I'm on my way back
to the emergency room.
01:00:36.507 --> 01:00:37.342
- [Dad] How come?
01:00:37.342 --> 01:00:39.719
- My neck hurts really
bad and I don't know why.
01:00:39.719 --> 01:00:41.721
'Cause it's never felt like this before.
01:00:43.598 --> 01:00:46.684
I don't know what they're gonna do yet
01:00:46.684 --> 01:00:48.269
because I don't know what's wrong.
01:00:48.269 --> 01:00:52.273
So I'm gonna have it checked
out and I'll let you know.
01:00:54.859 --> 01:00:55.693
I will.
01:00:55.693 --> 01:00:57.737
Okay, love you too.
01:00:57.737 --> 01:00:59.364
Okay, bye.
01:00:59.364 --> 01:01:02.450
(car engine revving)
01:01:09.332 --> 01:01:11.042
Hi baby girl, it's your mother.
01:01:11.042 --> 01:01:12.502
I'm just lettin' you know
01:01:12.502 --> 01:01:14.962
that I'm on my way to the emergency room.
01:01:14.962 --> 01:01:16.881
So it's not looking good
01:01:16.881 --> 01:01:18.883
for me to come to your thing tomorrow
01:01:18.883 --> 01:01:21.135
which I'm really bummed about.
01:01:21.135 --> 01:01:23.680
And like I said, grandma
doesn't want me to go,
01:01:23.680 --> 01:01:24.764
I don't think, so.
01:01:26.974 --> 01:01:28.518
She was hard to talk to.
01:01:29.394 --> 01:01:31.270
And I don't want you to
get in the middle of it,
01:01:31.270 --> 01:01:34.607
but I just would like you hear
my side if you're interested.
01:01:34.607 --> 01:01:37.527
If you're not, just tell
me to shut up and I will.
01:01:38.695 --> 01:01:42.240
I love you dearly and call me please
01:01:42.240 --> 01:01:44.909
so I can let you know what's going on.
01:01:44.909 --> 01:01:45.910
Okay, baby?
01:01:45.910 --> 01:01:47.787
I love you, bye.
01:01:47.787 --> 01:01:51.708
(lively Christmas carol music)
01:02:35.418 --> 01:02:38.504
- I started getting dopesick at work.
01:02:39.464 --> 01:02:42.091
I had had some dope the night before
01:02:42.091 --> 01:02:45.136
and I kinda figured you
know I'd be gettin' sick
01:02:45.136 --> 01:02:46.304
by the end of the work day,
01:02:46.304 --> 01:02:50.349
but by lunch time I was just-
01:02:50.349 --> 01:02:53.519
(somber music)
01:02:53.519 --> 01:02:56.439
There was actually a leak
in my shielding gas line
01:02:56.439 --> 01:02:59.066
and I'm sure being dopesick
didn't help me think.
01:03:00.234 --> 01:03:01.694
The boss wasn't happy.
01:03:01.694 --> 01:03:04.280
(gentle music)
01:03:11.412 --> 01:03:12.455
I'm still too pissed
01:03:12.455 --> 01:03:15.333
to even talk about the
whole thing in detail.
01:03:15.333 --> 01:03:18.002
But suffice to say I'm fired.
01:03:18.002 --> 01:03:19.128
I got fired.
01:03:19.128 --> 01:03:21.714
(somber music)
01:03:38.064 --> 01:03:40.817
(engine revving)
01:04:10.179 --> 01:04:11.681
- I've been worried about Sara
01:04:13.891 --> 01:04:17.562
and I've had no contact with Rae since.
01:04:19.397 --> 01:04:20.815
I tried a couple little tricks,
01:04:20.815 --> 01:04:25.820
I sent one of the best
pictures of Sara's face to Rae
01:04:27.321 --> 01:04:29.240
that I've ever seen.
01:04:29.240 --> 01:04:31.325
And I knew Rae didn't have a copy of it,
01:04:31.325 --> 01:04:33.870
Sara probably doesn't have a copy of it.
01:04:33.870 --> 01:04:38.875
And I didn't even get a
fuck you or a thank you
01:04:39.292 --> 01:04:40.251
or nothin' back.
01:04:43.880 --> 01:04:46.299
(bangs the door)
01:04:46.299 --> 01:04:49.385
(car engine revving)
01:04:51.178 --> 01:04:55.433
(indistinct background chattering)
01:04:58.311 --> 01:05:00.688
- I didn't expect that
it would be this bad.
01:05:02.315 --> 01:05:03.608
Like I would go in the hospital
01:05:03.608 --> 01:05:05.693
and be hooked up to dialysis the next day.
01:05:05.693 --> 01:05:06.986
I didn't expect that.
01:05:09.280 --> 01:05:12.617
The by-products that are in the heroin,
01:05:12.617 --> 01:05:17.121
that's what's been leading
to my kidney failure.
01:05:20.791 --> 01:05:24.670
My daughter, Maddie,
has been very mad at me.
01:05:25.588 --> 01:05:28.966
But when she found out I was in here
01:05:28.966 --> 01:05:33.971
she decided it was okay to come see me.
01:05:35.056 --> 01:05:39.727
So she came with my
parents and she sat with me
01:05:39.727 --> 01:05:42.104
and let me hug her the whole time.
01:05:43.648 --> 01:05:45.775
I really couldn't ask for a better kid.
01:05:49.028 --> 01:05:50.821
But I thought she was gonna treat me
01:05:50.821 --> 01:05:55.785
like I treated my parents,
more unforgiving, you know?
01:05:58.371 --> 01:06:02.541
And she didn't act like that at all.
01:06:04.669 --> 01:06:06.671
So I'm very thankful, (chuckles).
01:06:11.842 --> 01:06:14.929
(car engine revving)
01:06:23.354 --> 01:06:25.481
- Yeah, it's really, really tough.
01:06:25.481 --> 01:06:28.067
(gentle music)
01:06:30.111 --> 01:06:32.697
Garrett and I were just tooling around
01:06:32.697 --> 01:06:37.493
and I heard something; I
go upstairs and it's Krista
01:06:37.493 --> 01:06:42.498
and she's in the bedroom and
she's just yelling and crying
01:06:43.165 --> 01:06:44.917
and just tormented.
01:06:45.918 --> 01:06:50.923
Her purse, it's just full of
syringes and paraphernalia.
01:06:54.218 --> 01:06:58.264
And I told her we just
can't have that in our home.
01:06:59.598 --> 01:07:04.603
- I can't seem to get more
than three or four months clean
01:07:05.187 --> 01:07:06.313
and then I relapse.
01:07:08.607 --> 01:07:11.235
- I asked her to really
consider going to treatment,
01:07:11.235 --> 01:07:13.237
and she agreed.
01:07:13.237 --> 01:07:16.532
There was no fight, there
was no "No, I got this".
01:07:16.532 --> 01:07:19.368
It was like, "Yeah, let's
start making some phone calls."
01:07:22.955 --> 01:07:27.626
- My mom is a good
person, a normal person,
01:07:27.626 --> 01:07:29.295
she's not an addict.
01:07:31.213 --> 01:07:33.507
She wants to help me but doesn't know how.
01:07:33.507 --> 01:07:36.093
(somber music)
01:07:42.099 --> 01:07:45.770
(beeping hospital monitors)
01:07:54.945 --> 01:07:56.739
(indistinct)
01:07:56.739 --> 01:07:58.282
- [Sara] Hi sweetie, you brought food.
01:07:58.282 --> 01:08:00.493
- Pizza! Yay!
01:08:00.493 --> 01:08:02.870
- How was it, how was it coming up?
01:08:02.870 --> 01:08:03.704
- It was okay.
01:08:16.258 --> 01:08:20.096
You only get so many
chances in life at life.
01:08:20.096 --> 01:08:20.930
- Yep.
01:08:22.640 --> 01:08:24.433
Well, I should be dead
a whole bunch of times.
01:08:24.433 --> 01:08:26.018
- Both of us should.
01:08:27.103 --> 01:08:30.314
- I have to start
getting on the methadone.
01:08:30.314 --> 01:08:31.816
- [Rae] I'm getting clean too.
01:08:33.526 --> 01:08:36.570
Okay, I'm guessing you're tired?
01:08:36.570 --> 01:08:38.030
- [Sara] Yeah.
- [Rae] Okay.
01:08:43.410 --> 01:08:44.245
- Hoo-hoo!
01:08:44.245 --> 01:08:45.079
- And we're flat.
01:08:49.834 --> 01:08:52.253
(both laugh)
01:08:53.546 --> 01:08:55.840
People fight over this shit.
01:08:55.840 --> 01:08:58.509
(both laughing)
01:09:03.264 --> 01:09:04.098
That's better.
01:09:04.098 --> 01:09:04.932
- Perfect.
01:09:04.932 --> 01:09:06.559
- Yeah, I thought so.
01:09:11.188 --> 01:09:13.607
(both laugh)
01:09:15.234 --> 01:09:18.237
Oh, I wish our bed at home did that.
01:09:20.447 --> 01:09:22.658
I can't wait 'til you come home.
01:09:22.658 --> 01:09:25.244
(somber music)
01:09:32.793 --> 01:09:35.880
(car engine revving)
01:09:38.299 --> 01:09:39.550
- Hi sweetheart, ooh!
01:09:42.428 --> 01:09:44.513
I've got the cutest little girl,
01:09:44.513 --> 01:09:46.765
you gotta see this one.
01:09:46.765 --> 01:09:47.600
- [Tammy] So is she-
01:09:47.600 --> 01:09:51.437
- She's this tall, 80 pounds,
her hands are this big.
01:09:52.980 --> 01:09:56.358
Luckily the girl had told me, had told her
01:09:56.358 --> 01:09:57.610
when she first met her
01:09:57.610 --> 01:10:00.696
and brought her over to
my place for half an hour,
01:10:00.696 --> 01:10:03.699
this is the guy to know
if you need a safe spot.
01:10:03.699 --> 01:10:06.911
And I didn't think I'd ever see her again.
01:10:06.911 --> 01:10:08.954
But two days later she knocked on my door
01:10:08.954 --> 01:10:12.249
and hadn't been asleep
like for three or four days
01:10:12.249 --> 01:10:15.211
'cause she was afraid
to go to sleep anywhere.
01:10:15.211 --> 01:10:16.670
- Yeah, how old is she?
01:10:16.670 --> 01:10:19.590
- [Elliott] 26, she looks 12 to 14.
01:10:21.675 --> 01:10:23.510
- Is she staying there?
01:10:23.510 --> 01:10:28.515
- Yeah, on the couch.
01:10:29.058 --> 01:10:34.063
- On the couch?
01:10:35.272 --> 01:10:36.106
All right.
01:10:37.107 --> 01:10:42.112
- I think I got a little
teeny video of her.
01:10:44.031 --> 01:10:47.868
(indistinct background voice)
01:10:51.705 --> 01:10:53.332
She's kinda cute, uh?
01:10:53.332 --> 01:10:54.667
- Mm-hmm.
01:10:54.667 --> 01:10:57.378
(somber music)
01:10:57.378 --> 01:11:00.631
(police siren wailing)
01:11:11.392 --> 01:11:14.478
- [Police Radio] Female
caller from a 911 cell phone,
01:11:14.478 --> 01:11:15.854
she didn't know where she was.
01:11:17.106 --> 01:11:19.108
(radio interference drowns
out speaker) Avenue North.
01:11:20.484 --> 01:11:23.070
(somber music)
01:11:34.581 --> 01:11:36.041
- [Donna] This room gets recorded,
01:11:36.041 --> 01:11:38.168
there's a camera on up here,
you are aware of that okay.
01:11:38.168 --> 01:11:39.461
- [Elliott] Yeah.
01:11:39.461 --> 01:11:41.422
- [Donna] Did the officer
read you your Miranda rights
01:11:41.422 --> 01:11:42.548
when they brought you in?
01:11:42.548 --> 01:11:44.008
So I'm gonna read you your Miranda rights.
01:11:44.008 --> 01:11:46.385
That is the reason I wasn't
gonna try to talk to you
01:11:46.385 --> 01:11:48.554
further about my investigation
01:11:48.554 --> 01:11:51.181
is because you had talked
about needing an attorney.
01:11:51.181 --> 01:11:53.100
- I'm worried about my kit, cat.
01:11:53.100 --> 01:11:54.560
- [Donna] I know, if you need something,
01:11:54.560 --> 01:11:56.186
just kind of wave at the
camera and we'll see it.
01:11:56.186 --> 01:11:57.229
- Okay.
Okay?
01:11:57.229 --> 01:11:58.063
- Thank you.
01:11:58.063 --> 01:11:58.897
Thank you very much, Donna.
01:11:58.897 --> 01:11:59.732
- [Donna] Okay.
01:11:59.732 --> 01:12:00.566
- I wish you had just called me,
01:12:00.566 --> 01:12:01.817
I would have just came down here.
01:12:01.817 --> 01:12:04.403
(somber music)
01:12:31.430 --> 01:12:35.309
- News at 5:30, the so-called
Seattle Mayor of Aurora
01:12:35.309 --> 01:12:37.353
is in jail on a million dollars bail
01:12:37.353 --> 01:12:39.396
for preying on sex workers.
01:12:39.396 --> 01:12:41.774
Prosecutors say this man, Laughn Doescher,
01:12:41.774 --> 01:12:45.402
raped and recorded video of
women he offered shelter to
01:12:45.402 --> 01:12:47.821
in his motor home on Aurora Avenue North.
01:12:47.821 --> 01:12:50.074
Prosecutors say Doescher
represented himself
01:12:50.074 --> 01:12:51.992
as someone who helps prostitutes,
01:12:51.992 --> 01:12:53.702
who need a safe place to stay
01:12:53.702 --> 01:12:56.330
and a chance to get to clean and sober.
01:12:56.330 --> 01:12:57.873
(somber music)
01:12:57.873 --> 01:13:01.251
- This is not at all in
keeping with the person
01:13:01.251 --> 01:13:04.505
that I have known for 12 or 13 years.
01:13:11.512 --> 01:13:12.721
- Oh my god!
01:13:12.721 --> 01:13:15.307
(somber music)
01:13:36.745 --> 01:13:38.956
- [Judge] Is your true name
Laughn Elliott Doescher?
01:13:38.956 --> 01:13:39.790
- Yes.
01:13:39.790 --> 01:13:41.417
- [Judge] You've been
charged in Count 1 with rape
01:13:41.417 --> 01:13:42.501
in the second degree.
01:13:43.335 --> 01:13:47.631
In Count 2 you've been charged
with indecent liberties.
01:13:47.631 --> 01:13:49.758
In Count 3 you've been
charged with voyeurism
01:13:49.758 --> 01:13:51.885
alleged to have happened
in King County, Washington.
01:13:51.885 --> 01:13:54.346
I'm handing to your counsel
of a copy of the information.
01:13:54.346 --> 01:13:55.180
- [Attorney] Your Honor,
good morning (indistinct)
01:13:55.180 --> 01:13:57.141
on appearing on behalf of Mr. Doescher,
01:13:57.141 --> 01:14:00.102
we do acknowledge segue for
the formal reading enter pleas
01:14:00.102 --> 01:14:02.771
of not guilty to all of the charges.
01:14:02.771 --> 01:14:04.231
- [Judge] Not guilty pleas (indistinct)?
01:14:04.231 --> 01:14:05.190
- [Attorney] At this point,
01:14:05.190 --> 01:14:07.192
there are a number of witness interviews
01:14:07.192 --> 01:14:09.027
that still need to be conducted.
01:14:09.027 --> 01:14:12.698
I believe that there are 7
different alleged victims
01:14:12.698 --> 01:14:13.532
in this case?
01:14:13.532 --> 01:14:14.616
- [Judge] Yes.
01:14:14.616 --> 01:14:17.161
(somber music)
01:14:27.004 --> 01:14:29.715
- I just came from police headquarters.
01:14:30.799 --> 01:14:35.345
I had to go speak with
detective about Elliott.
01:14:37.097 --> 01:14:41.685
The detective asked me if
I had ever gave permission
01:14:41.685 --> 01:14:46.064
or allowed him to videotape me or film me.
01:14:46.064 --> 01:14:48.484
And I said, absolutely not.
01:14:48.484 --> 01:14:52.613
"Did you give him permission
to have anal sex?"
01:14:52.613 --> 01:14:56.158
I said, "No, matter,
I've never had anal sex."
01:14:56.158 --> 01:14:59.995
She said, "Okay, I'm
gonna show you some videos
01:14:59.995 --> 01:15:02.372
that were on his phone."
01:15:02.372 --> 01:15:04.958
(somber music)
01:15:07.920 --> 01:15:10.214
When you scroll through
your contacts list?
01:15:10.214 --> 01:15:11.840
That's what his videos list looks like.
01:15:11.840 --> 01:15:15.552
It's hundreds and hundreds
and hundreds of videos;
01:15:15.552 --> 01:15:20.557
Amy sleeping, Amy anal, or just Amy.
01:15:25.646 --> 01:15:29.066
And he was doing this all along.
01:15:29.066 --> 01:15:33.111
And not just to me but
to many, many girls.
01:15:33.111 --> 01:15:35.697
(somber music)
01:15:38.575 --> 01:15:41.036
- This is one of the most vulgar ironies
01:15:41.036 --> 01:15:43.956
I could possibly even conceive of.
01:15:43.956 --> 01:15:48.961
The role that Elliott played
in capturing this predator
01:15:49.795 --> 01:15:53.632
who abducted and raped Amy.
01:15:54.466 --> 01:15:59.096
And then for it to turnaround that,
01:15:59.096 --> 01:16:04.101
oh by way, he's not the only
sexual predator who got you.
01:16:09.273 --> 01:16:13.402
For her to be one of Elliott's subjects,
01:16:13.402 --> 01:16:18.198
victims, that's wow.
01:16:18.198 --> 01:16:21.076
I mean, that's just twisted.
01:16:22.035 --> 01:16:24.162
Fucking twisted, man.
01:16:24.162 --> 01:16:27.249
(crickets chirping)
01:16:27.249 --> 01:16:29.835
(somber music)
01:16:34.923 --> 01:16:36.592
- [Woman] This call is from:
01:16:36.592 --> 01:16:38.302
- [Elliott] Laughn Doescher.
01:16:38.302 --> 01:16:40.846
- [Woman] This call will
be recorded and monitored.
01:16:42.431 --> 01:16:43.682
- [Elliott] Once I was arrested,
01:16:43.682 --> 01:16:46.268
I wasn't allowed to speak
to any of these people
01:16:46.268 --> 01:16:50.647
to remind them of what happened.
01:16:53.025 --> 01:16:58.030
And I make no bones about
I like sex very much.
01:16:58.447 --> 01:17:01.033
(somber music)
01:17:04.661 --> 01:17:08.290
Of all the girls that
hung around, I loved Sara,
01:17:08.290 --> 01:17:11.209
separately and more than the rest of them.
01:17:11.209 --> 01:17:13.795
(somber music)
01:17:16.214 --> 01:17:18.967
Certainly, I would do it over again.
01:17:22.262 --> 01:17:23.805
I really don't see the changes
01:17:23.805 --> 01:17:26.642
that I could or should have made.
01:17:26.642 --> 01:17:29.227
(somber music)
01:17:31.521 --> 01:17:34.608
(car engine revving)
01:17:48.330 --> 01:17:51.083
(birds chirping)
01:17:55.253 --> 01:17:58.090
- I hear you but I don't see you.
01:17:59.174 --> 01:18:00.300
Hi.
01:18:00.300 --> 01:18:01.426
- Hi, you've put on some weight too.
01:18:01.426 --> 01:18:02.344
- Thank you (laughs).
01:18:02.344 --> 01:18:04.346
I know, that methadone
makes me gain weight-
01:18:04.346 --> 01:18:05.806
- I know, me too.
- Like crazy.
01:18:05.806 --> 01:18:07.557
- I've never-
- I'm so fricking fat.
01:18:07.557 --> 01:18:08.600
I'm like ... (laughs).
01:18:08.600 --> 01:18:09.851
- I've never been this big before.
01:18:09.851 --> 01:18:12.479
- Me too, I'm like, you don't understand,
01:18:12.479 --> 01:18:13.855
I've always been the petite girl.
01:18:13.855 --> 01:18:16.775
This is the heaviest I've
been in my whole life.
01:18:16.775 --> 01:18:17.609
- [Sara] Me too.
01:18:17.609 --> 01:18:18.443
- My whole life.
- Except for
01:18:18.443 --> 01:18:19.277
when I was pregnant.
01:18:21.113 --> 01:18:21.947
- The detective's like
01:18:21.947 --> 01:18:24.157
"Hi, this is Detective so
and so from King County."
01:18:24.157 --> 01:18:25.742
And she said, "Yeah, he's in jail
01:18:25.742 --> 01:18:30.122
and it'd be best if you
could just come down here."
01:18:30.122 --> 01:18:31.707
'Cause at first I was torn.
01:18:33.291 --> 01:18:34.501
I felt like well this is my friend,
01:18:34.501 --> 01:18:36.086
I don't wanna betray him.
01:18:36.086 --> 01:18:39.172
The very first picture
that she showed me is,
01:18:39.172 --> 01:18:41.883
I'm like spread eagle on the bed,
01:18:42.843 --> 01:18:44.678
you can tell it's his
hands 'cause of his rings.
01:18:44.678 --> 01:18:45.887
- Rings, right.
01:18:45.887 --> 01:18:49.850
- And he's playing with me or whatever.
01:18:49.850 --> 01:18:52.811
And it's titled like, Amy's Pussy.
01:18:52.811 --> 01:18:55.188
You can tell I'm not
awake or not conscious
01:18:55.188 --> 01:18:58.191
'cause I'm not moving,
I'm not making a sound.
01:18:58.191 --> 01:18:59.025
You know what I'm saying?
01:18:59.025 --> 01:19:01.069
If that were to happen,
you'd make a sound.
01:19:01.069 --> 01:19:04.239
Instantly, no longer do I feel torn.
01:19:04.239 --> 01:19:06.950
No longer is that man my friend.
01:19:06.950 --> 01:19:09.578
Don't you remember how
like, if ever you were sick,
01:19:09.578 --> 01:19:11.705
didn't he ever offer, "Oh,
I can give you a Valium-
01:19:11.705 --> 01:19:12.873
or Vicodin -"
- [Sara] Oh, he always did.
01:19:12.873 --> 01:19:14.166
He always gave us a pill
He always did.
01:19:14.166 --> 01:19:15.709
- I never knew what those pills were.
01:19:15.709 --> 01:19:16.877
- They're Benzos.
01:19:16.877 --> 01:19:18.962
- I was just dopesick,
you know what I'm saying?
01:19:18.962 --> 01:19:20.964
- Yeah.
- But it was something...
01:19:20.964 --> 01:19:21.882
- It helped you.
- And maybe it was Benzos,
01:19:21.882 --> 01:19:24.509
but it was something to put us out, Sara.
01:19:24.509 --> 01:19:25.343
- It was Benzos.
01:19:25.343 --> 01:19:26.344
And he had to give me,
01:19:26.344 --> 01:19:28.638
I have a really high tolerance for them.
01:19:28.638 --> 01:19:29.890
- Yeah, he used to give
me handfuls of them.
01:19:29.890 --> 01:19:31.266
- Yeah.
- Like four or five,
01:19:31.266 --> 01:19:32.517
six, seven pills.
01:19:32.517 --> 01:19:35.020
You know how it is on the
streets, you can't trust anybody.
01:19:35.020 --> 01:19:36.605
And it's like, the one person
01:19:36.605 --> 01:19:39.316
that we thought well maybe
there's like a glimmer of hope
01:19:39.316 --> 01:19:42.944
that he's kind to us or whatever.
01:19:42.944 --> 01:19:45.155
And it was all of font.
01:19:45.155 --> 01:19:47.073
- Yeah, 'cause there's
like the last two weeks
01:19:47.073 --> 01:19:48.617
I spent with him-
- Yeah.
01:19:48.617 --> 01:19:51.453
- In my head I'm thinking
that he didn't touch me.
01:19:51.453 --> 01:19:52.287
- Me either, (group chattering)
01:19:52.287 --> 01:19:53.663
but it's when you were asleep.
01:19:53.663 --> 01:19:54.790
- Yeah, exactly.
01:19:55.665 --> 01:19:57.042
- It's fucked up.
01:19:57.042 --> 01:19:57.876
- Yeah.
01:19:57.876 --> 01:19:59.586
- It's really fucking fucked up.
01:19:59.586 --> 01:20:02.172
(somber music)
01:20:04.549 --> 01:20:05.801
And just think, Sara,
01:20:05.801 --> 01:20:08.345
he has been on Aurora for over 10 years.
01:20:08.345 --> 01:20:09.179
- [Sara] I know.
01:20:09.179 --> 01:20:10.972
- [Krista] Can you imagine
the volume of girls?
01:20:10.972 --> 01:20:11.807
- [Sara] I know.
01:20:13.266 --> 01:20:14.976
Just because me and you
are off the streets,
01:20:14.976 --> 01:20:17.395
there's a whole new crew out there.
01:20:17.395 --> 01:20:20.649
(somber music)
01:20:20.649 --> 01:20:22.818
- [Krista] So grateful I'm
not in that lifestyle anymore.
01:20:22.818 --> 01:20:24.110
- [Sara] Tell me about it.
01:20:25.529 --> 01:20:27.572
- [Krista] I wish the
cycle could stop somewhere.
01:20:27.572 --> 01:20:30.283
Do I ever think it will? No.
01:20:30.283 --> 01:20:32.911
- With Elliott, if we can
get him off the streets,
01:20:32.911 --> 01:20:35.539
then other girls-
01:20:35.539 --> 01:20:37.874
- That cycle can stop.
01:20:37.874 --> 01:20:40.460
(somber music)
01:20:42.754 --> 01:20:45.507
(birds chirping)
01:20:53.765 --> 01:20:57.269
- The bottom line is the
truth is what matters here.
01:20:59.187 --> 01:21:01.147
Always, always, always the top priority
01:21:01.147 --> 01:21:05.485
must be fidelity to the truth and justice.
01:21:07.153 --> 01:21:10.115
Because there's so little
of it in this fucking world.
01:21:10.115 --> 01:21:13.285
(birds chirping)
01:21:13.285 --> 01:21:17.497
(indistinct background chattering)
01:21:19.165 --> 01:21:23.670
- (indistinct) Search! oh here
we go, (faintly speaking).
01:21:24.796 --> 01:21:28.091
(somber music)
01:21:28.091 --> 01:21:31.052
- I talked to Elliott's ex-wife briefly
01:21:31.052 --> 01:21:36.057
and she told me that he
has prior convictions
01:21:36.641 --> 01:21:39.769
in Family Court in King
County, but that it was sealed.
01:21:41.313 --> 01:21:43.440
So hopefully she's got some proof of this
01:21:43.440 --> 01:21:46.985
so that we can prove that
he's a persistent offender,
01:21:46.985 --> 01:21:50.447
and then he'll go away forever.
01:21:50.447 --> 01:21:51.281
- Hi.
01:21:51.281 --> 01:21:52.115
- Hi.
01:21:52.115 --> 01:21:52.949
- Hi, nice to meet you.
01:21:52.949 --> 01:21:53.783
Thank you so much
01:21:53.783 --> 01:21:54.868
for having me come.
- It's so good to meet you.
01:21:54.868 --> 01:21:57.454
- So I dug through my paperwork
01:21:57.454 --> 01:21:59.873
and the Court has specifically found
01:21:59.873 --> 01:22:03.418
that Laughn Elliott
Doescher sexually abused,
01:22:03.418 --> 01:22:06.087
and then it does have our daughter's name.
01:22:06.087 --> 01:22:06.922
- [Krista] wow!
01:22:06.922 --> 01:22:07.756
- It shows the date.
01:22:07.756 --> 01:22:10.300
It shows that it was signed by the court
01:22:10.300 --> 01:22:13.011
and that this was being sent
01:22:13.011 --> 01:22:15.347
to the Washington State Patrol Office.
01:22:15.347 --> 01:22:19.851
The Court finds by
preponderance of evidence
01:22:19.851 --> 01:22:23.229
that my daughter has been sexually abused
01:22:23.229 --> 01:22:24.981
by that Laughn Doescher-
01:22:24.981 --> 01:22:26.358
- Yeah.
- Is the perpetrator.
01:22:26.358 --> 01:22:31.154
They never prosecuted
him in criminal court.
01:22:31.154 --> 01:22:34.491
But if they would take a look
at what's in that file there,
01:22:34.491 --> 01:22:38.411
then they would truly see
the type of man that he is.
01:22:38.411 --> 01:22:40.997
(somber music)
01:22:59.557 --> 01:23:00.725
- Oh fuck!
01:23:00.725 --> 01:23:02.727
There's no fucking way.
01:23:02.727 --> 01:23:04.062
Holy shit.
01:23:04.062 --> 01:23:07.399
(indistinct chattering)
01:23:09.192 --> 01:23:10.735
- Oh wow, I remember this.
01:23:11.611 --> 01:23:14.030
This piece of shit.
01:23:14.030 --> 01:23:16.449
(indistinct)
01:23:18.410 --> 01:23:21.788
It takes a long time
after you stop using drugs
01:23:23.039 --> 01:23:27.210
to get normal, or even close to it.
01:23:29.462 --> 01:23:32.090
I just take it one day at a time,
01:23:32.090 --> 01:23:34.843
sometimes it's like one minute at a time.
01:23:36.511 --> 01:23:39.180
I have the cat and the dog
and I have a good boyfriend.
01:23:39.180 --> 01:23:41.057
And I have other good people.
01:23:41.933 --> 01:23:46.813
How great is that, that
the thing comes off
01:23:46.813 --> 01:23:48.940
so you can wash it in the washing machine?
01:23:50.066 --> 01:23:50.900
Honey?
01:23:50.900 --> 01:23:52.777
- Yeah that is great, but we
don't have a washing machine.
01:23:52.777 --> 01:23:54.654
- No, but I'm just sayin'.
01:23:54.654 --> 01:23:55.655
(Charlie laughs)
01:23:55.655 --> 01:23:56.614
- Well, 'cause I...
01:23:58.366 --> 01:24:01.369
This was a house that Charlie
01:24:02.245 --> 01:24:05.999
has been working on for months.
01:24:05.999 --> 01:24:09.419
When I got fired from my
job I'm like you know what,
01:24:09.419 --> 01:24:10.754
am I gonna do about income?
01:24:10.754 --> 01:24:13.965
And I've been working with
him for last couple months.
01:24:17.469 --> 01:24:18.928
Charlie, I think overall
01:24:18.928 --> 01:24:21.556
this floor ended up turning out okay.
01:24:21.556 --> 01:24:22.599
(Charlie faintly speaking)
01:24:22.599 --> 01:24:24.142
I mean considering what it was.
01:24:25.018 --> 01:24:26.102
- [Charlie] Yeah.
01:24:26.102 --> 01:24:28.480
(birds chirping)
01:24:28.480 --> 01:24:32.150
(hospital monitors beeping)
01:24:35.153 --> 01:24:36.738
- I really wasn't feeling right.
01:24:38.573 --> 01:24:41.659
This time I got a fever, and
came in and they're like,
01:24:41.659 --> 01:24:42.494
"Oh come on,
01:24:42.494 --> 01:24:44.662
you've got all kinds of
shit going on in your body."
01:24:49.084 --> 01:24:50.960
When I first got divorced,
01:24:50.960 --> 01:24:53.254
I was only supposed to take a year off
01:24:53.254 --> 01:24:55.590
and get my shit together.
01:24:55.590 --> 01:24:58.176
Well, it's been 12 years now
01:24:58.176 --> 01:25:00.470
and I'm just now getting my shit together.
01:25:04.724 --> 01:25:06.810
My parents, they've come around a lot
01:25:06.810 --> 01:25:08.561
and they've shown a lot of support.
01:25:11.189 --> 01:25:12.690
They see me trying.
01:25:12.690 --> 01:25:15.276
(somber music)
01:25:19.364 --> 01:25:22.075
My daughter, I'm hopin' that
maybe she'll stay with me
01:25:22.075 --> 01:25:23.409
part of the summer.
01:25:24.786 --> 01:25:29.791
I'm always nervous to see her,
but I get over it real fast.
01:25:33.086 --> 01:25:35.922
'Cause I get more excited
than anything to see her.
01:25:35.922 --> 01:25:38.508
(somber music)
01:25:39.592 --> 01:25:42.345
(birds chirping)
01:26:13.084 --> 01:26:15.503
- It's very difficult to
stand before you today
01:26:16.796 --> 01:26:18.798
and to speak about Sara.
01:26:21.176 --> 01:26:26.181
I don't want to gloss over
the pain that she experienced
01:26:29.851 --> 01:26:32.770
nor the pain that she caused.
01:26:34.898 --> 01:26:37.108
She was able in a short life,
01:26:38.151 --> 01:26:42.530
to bring into the world, children.
01:26:45.450 --> 01:26:48.786
Children who perhaps
01:26:49.913 --> 01:26:54.834
wished they could have known
their mother more deeply.
01:26:56.794 --> 01:26:59.214
She loved you so much.
01:27:02.425 --> 01:27:04.177
Her greatest disappointment
01:27:05.178 --> 01:27:09.182
was that she was not able to
fulfill your dreams for her.
01:27:11.643 --> 01:27:14.229
(somber music)
01:27:24.739 --> 01:27:25.740
- I don't know if Sara
01:27:25.740 --> 01:27:28.576
could really accept the
fact that people love her.
01:27:28.576 --> 01:27:31.162
(somber music)
01:27:34.916 --> 01:27:36.459
Most of the people in her life
01:27:37.794 --> 01:27:42.382
were out in the Aurora
monsters, they don't care.
01:27:42.382 --> 01:27:44.425
They pretend to and they don't.
01:27:46.010 --> 01:27:48.554
Real friends are really,
really hard to find.
01:27:48.554 --> 01:27:51.516
Anywhere you live, any lifestyle,
01:27:51.516 --> 01:27:54.060
it's really hard to find good friends
01:27:54.060 --> 01:27:58.273
that really care and in that
life it's next to impossible.
01:27:58.273 --> 01:28:00.858
(somber music)
01:28:05.822 --> 01:28:08.116
- [Kristine] When I was
brought out to Aurora,
01:28:09.409 --> 01:28:12.578
I just got kinda left there.
01:28:14.622 --> 01:28:17.500
I didn't feel like I had any
other choice but to figure out
01:28:17.500 --> 01:28:19.711
how to start making some money.
01:28:21.129 --> 01:28:22.755
Sara came over there and was like,
01:28:22.755 --> 01:28:25.466
"Okay, well, be careful of this person,
01:28:25.466 --> 01:28:28.386
and be careful doing this and doing that."
01:28:28.386 --> 01:28:30.388
(somber music)
01:28:30.388 --> 01:28:33.266
She was one of the first
girls I ever met on Aurora.
01:28:33.266 --> 01:28:35.852
(somber music)
01:28:39.647 --> 01:28:40.481
- [Tammy] I feel really bad
01:28:40.481 --> 01:28:42.525
'cause I heard she really,
really, really, really,
01:28:42.525 --> 01:28:45.737
really needed me at the end
and she couldn't find me.
01:28:45.737 --> 01:28:48.323
(somber music)
01:28:53.119 --> 01:28:55.455
She's someone I probably
would have been with.
01:28:57.832 --> 01:29:01.711
I just, I don't know, too
fucked up at the time.
01:29:03.212 --> 01:29:05.465
I just should have been there.
01:29:05.465 --> 01:29:07.467
I didn't know she was dying.
01:29:07.467 --> 01:29:10.053
(somber music)
01:29:13.890 --> 01:29:15.725
The defense attorney called me
01:29:15.725 --> 01:29:19.854
and asked me if I could
speak on Elliott's behalf.
01:29:19.854 --> 01:29:22.482
He said that he's been
there for you a lot.
01:29:22.482 --> 01:29:25.026
That he's visited you in the hospital.
01:29:25.026 --> 01:29:26.319
And that was true.
01:29:27.278 --> 01:29:32.158
So it was really hard
to say no, I would not.
01:29:34.160 --> 01:29:39.165
I saw him from a mile away
but I couldn't talk about it.
01:29:39.374 --> 01:29:41.417
I couldn't talk about it with anybody
01:29:43.002 --> 01:29:46.089
because I couldn't even
face my own demons.
01:29:48.257 --> 01:29:52.011
He never, ever, ever, ever tried on me
01:29:52.011 --> 01:29:53.971
to do what he did to the other girls.
01:29:54.972 --> 01:29:56.849
Because he knew I knew what he was.
01:29:56.849 --> 01:29:59.435
(somber music)
01:30:00.603 --> 01:30:03.940
(indistinct chattering)
01:30:07.360 --> 01:30:10.613
- It is so good to be home baby.
01:30:10.613 --> 01:30:14.534
(indistinct group chattering)
01:30:14.534 --> 01:30:15.868
Methadone was awesome.
01:30:17.078 --> 01:30:17.912
It saved my life.
01:30:20.123 --> 01:30:22.667
I don't know what happened
this time, I don't know.
01:30:24.502 --> 01:30:26.712
Somethin' clicked, I
can't even really say.
01:30:26.712 --> 01:30:30.925
(indistinct background chattering)
01:30:31.843 --> 01:30:35.054
After that I just couldn't
imagine going back to that chaos.
01:30:35.054 --> 01:30:37.640
(somber music)
01:30:41.769 --> 01:30:46.149
(indistinct group chattering)
01:30:46.149 --> 01:30:48.359
- [Bailiff] All rise,
King County Superior Court
01:30:48.359 --> 01:30:49.277
is now in session.
01:30:49.277 --> 01:30:51.279
The Honorable Theresa Dole is residing.
01:30:51.279 --> 01:30:53.364
- [Judge] Thank you, you may be seated.
01:30:53.364 --> 01:30:54.907
- [Bailiff] This is
State v. Laughn Doescher,
01:30:54.907 --> 01:30:56.284
Cause 12655 SEA.
01:30:57.910 --> 01:31:00.413
Hear from the victim
in Count 2, your Honor.
01:31:00.413 --> 01:31:02.748
(footsteps)
01:31:07.462 --> 01:31:09.714
- [Judge] Hi, good afternoon.
01:31:09.714 --> 01:31:12.133
- Hi, good afternoon, your Honor.
01:31:12.133 --> 01:31:13.551
I am here today
01:31:13.551 --> 01:31:18.055
as the voice of the women
victimized by the defendant.
01:31:18.055 --> 01:31:19.098
As far as I have come
01:31:19.098 --> 01:31:21.058
and as proud as I am of where I am today,
01:31:21.058 --> 01:31:23.060
my outlook on life will
forever be impacted
01:31:23.060 --> 01:31:25.188
because of what you did to me.
01:31:25.188 --> 01:31:28.399
The last thing I ever
wanted was to see you again.
01:31:28.399 --> 01:31:30.109
I'm here today not only for myself
01:31:30.109 --> 01:31:31.694
but for Sara and for all the girls
01:31:31.694 --> 01:31:33.529
that are in desperate situations,
01:31:33.529 --> 01:31:35.948
addicted or vulnerable
for whatever reason.
01:31:35.948 --> 01:31:38.618
Victims of sexual crimes
have the unfortunate stigma
01:31:38.618 --> 01:31:39.827
that they did something wrong
01:31:39.827 --> 01:31:41.954
or put themselves in
a situation to suggest
01:31:41.954 --> 01:31:43.581
that they wanted this to happen
01:31:43.581 --> 01:31:46.000
or they suggested or led
on that this was okay.
01:31:47.376 --> 01:31:49.337
You took advantage of
my desperate situation
01:31:49.337 --> 01:31:50.838
while I was the height of my addiction,
01:31:50.838 --> 01:31:52.715
knowing that I had no other place to go
01:31:52.715 --> 01:31:55.092
and no other resources to count on.
01:31:55.092 --> 01:31:58.471
The things that I saw you
doing to me in those videos
01:31:58.471 --> 01:32:00.473
were the very things that
you asked me to do for money
01:32:00.473 --> 01:32:01.724
when I was coherent.
01:32:01.724 --> 01:32:02.808
I said no!
01:32:02.808 --> 01:32:04.101
I said no!
01:32:05.895 --> 01:32:08.397
You picked the wrong woman
to target and to abuse.
01:32:08.397 --> 01:32:09.232
You made the mistake
01:32:09.232 --> 01:32:11.150
to confuse my addiction with being weak.
01:32:11.150 --> 01:32:13.444
I am not weak, Sara was not weak.
01:32:14.362 --> 01:32:15.696
I don't know if you had an opportunity
01:32:15.696 --> 01:32:16.822
to read Sara's statement or not,
01:32:16.822 --> 01:32:19.075
but I'm letting you know
that she knows what you did,
01:32:19.075 --> 01:32:20.243
she knows what you are,
01:32:20.243 --> 01:32:23.371
and you have to live with that
for the rest of your life.
01:32:23.371 --> 01:32:25.122
Today, I am looking ahead
01:32:25.122 --> 01:32:26.499
and today you are still looking down
01:32:26.499 --> 01:32:27.917
refusing to make eye contact.
01:32:29.835 --> 01:32:30.878
Thank you.
01:32:30.878 --> 01:32:33.422
(somber music)
01:32:34.966 --> 01:32:36.551
- Mr. Doescher,
01:32:36.551 --> 01:32:41.305
you chose a particularly
vulnerable population
01:32:41.305 --> 01:32:44.433
and you chose to commit your crimes
01:32:44.433 --> 01:32:46.811
when they were in a state
01:32:46.811 --> 01:32:48.813
when they were even more vulnerable,
01:32:50.106 --> 01:32:53.276
basically unable to consent
01:32:53.276 --> 01:32:56.529
because they were
unconscious or virtually so.
01:32:57.488 --> 01:33:01.909
And what's worse is that you
created, as the Detective said,
01:33:01.909 --> 01:33:06.080
a place of refuge for people
who desperately needed that.
01:33:06.080 --> 01:33:08.207
And portrayed yourself as a friend
01:33:08.207 --> 01:33:10.876
to people who really need a friend
01:33:10.876 --> 01:33:13.588
and then violated that trust.
01:33:13.588 --> 01:33:18.467
So I will impose the top
of the standard range
01:33:18.467 --> 01:33:21.554
on all the counts as recommended.
01:33:21.554 --> 01:33:23.222
And that appears to conclude the matter.
01:33:23.222 --> 01:33:24.890
Anything else (faintly speaking)?
01:33:24.890 --> 01:33:28.769
(group faintly speaking)
01:33:28.769 --> 01:33:30.438
- [Bailiff] All rise.
01:33:30.438 --> 01:33:33.024
(somber music)
01:33:49.665 --> 01:33:51.792
- There's a a lot of
sad stories out there.
01:33:52.793 --> 01:33:54.962
There's a few good ones, though.
01:33:54.962 --> 01:33:56.589
A few happy endings,
01:33:56.589 --> 01:33:59.717
or at least acceptable endings. (laughs)
01:33:59.717 --> 01:34:02.303
(somber music)
01:34:42.343 --> 01:34:47.014
♪ You only see what you don't like, huh ♪
01:34:53.521 --> 01:34:58.359
♪ You only pick what
you can't fight, now ♪
01:35:04.573 --> 01:35:09.203
♪ You only see what you don't like, huh ♪
01:35:15.626 --> 01:35:20.464
♪ You only pick what
you can't fight, now ♪
01:35:27.680 --> 01:35:32.268
♪ And you are the one you need to love ♪
01:35:38.774 --> 01:35:43.362
♪ And you are the one you need to love ♪
01:35:49.785 --> 01:35:54.123
♪ And who are you wasting all it on ♪
01:36:00.880 --> 01:36:05.468
♪ And you are the one you need to love ♪
01:36:37.958 --> 01:36:40.544
(gentle music)
